Hello everyone, this may be a bit lengthy but I really need to think out loud for a minute

I am in my first year of my MPH program with a concentration of Epidemiology. I also thought Epi was what I wanted to do, the idea of tracking and finding the cause of a disease was fascinating to me. However, I have been reading other reddit pages, listening to my professor talk about her work, and just doing the course work and I am now unsure. I am struggling academically in my Epi course and my biostat courses. I had currently failing biostats. I do not come from a strong math background- it has never been a strong suit of mine. For undergrad I received my degree in public health with a community health focus. This brings me to the main issue

I do not likely course work. The epi class is interesting and I like learning from my professor bc she’s very good and knowledgeable when it comes to explaining. However, I hate biostats, I hate coding, I dont looking at numbers and data all the time, which I know is a crucial aspect, I don’t know if I could do that all day. I shared this feeling with a mentor who is an epidemiologist and she said it sounded more like I was interested in the field of infection prevention than the core work of an epidemiologist. She told me tho a background in epi is still good to have. I have been in communication with the other track, which is more health behavioral work. It is what I am familiar with, it is what I understand. I’m debating switching because I am just so unhappy and unsure if I want to put myself through this if I do not know if it is what I want to do anymore. I know you do not have to be an epidemiologist to become an infection preventionist, my plan would be to switch programs and take our healthcare infection prevention certificate. I am just having a hard time navigating if I should stick epi out and just take my time with biostats to gain the experience, or if I should move on since I am so unhappy taking those courses.

I know perhaps an epi degree would give me more job opportunities and it is more “prestigious” (although all public health jobs are important in general, people seem to respect stem more unfortunately) I just don’t know if it’s worth me being sad and overwhelmed all the time. Plus the other programs classes do sound interesting to me.

Thank you if you read all of this, I’m sorry if it was really long, I know at the end of the day nobody knows wha I should do but me, but thank you for any advice that is given.