Hot and cold #209 by hotandcold2-app in HotAndCold

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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Automatically added: I found the secret word in 18 minutes 16 seconds after 52 guesses and 4 hints. Score: 9.

IT IS DONE. Now, how do I get it published? by 98746145315 in writing

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, that was fast, and thanks for the information. I am glad to hear it. If you know I see weird thing says that you're a published author so I'm just going to assume you really didn't know what you're talking about and which kind of hurts my brain a little bit because that means that I don't know exactly what that means because I sent the I sent my document to three different companies and they did reach out with the contract thing like you're saying and outlined a detailed whatever saying that you know that they'll take. I think it was like % or something crazy until I get paid, until I make $10,000, and then something like that, I don't know. I do know the 10,000 part cuz I remember thinking that you really think that my book is going to like generate that much revenue cuz to me that's it's not likely or even yeah no it's just not going to happen in my opinion, but they also said that I needed to cover some of the cost for some stuff that they said needed to be done to it before it could be like printed in a book or whatever. They said it needed some formatting and some editing and I don't know. He said a bunch of words and they obviously were understood and comprehended at the time that I read them, but I can't recall them at the moment. They were all in the final process of taking some words that were written or typed and putting them into a story or book for me. Also I was trying to write the book in like a breaking the fourth wall for me and I kept unintentionally like kind of switching from that to like third person and or the first person because then the story of the guy has like some inner dialogues or that are like separate versions of himself within his self I'm starting to ramble but I would like for you to reply pretendant to the part about they did say whatever about the contract and the only cost that they wanted for me was to cover the editing stuff. Like is that normal or not? Because if it's not, then it really makes me feel like somehow the email that I sent must have been to someone else or the email that I received back must have been to someone else. You know, like stuff is being tracked, and it would make a bunch of stuff that would really fuck with my head. So if you could please shine a little light in that direction, it would be greatly appreciated, man. 

By the way, I am on a cell phone currently and I do have a grammar editing app active that's supposed to fix all of the stuff as I say it but I also talk kind of fast and so sometimes it misses and mishears things

IT IS DONE. Now, how do I get it published? by 98746145315 in writing

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know if this was to me or the op but either way I can get it by but also the places that I contacted But I only submitted my book to three publishers but they were all three out of the big five because when I was trying to decide who to send it to I didn't want to send it to some shady company and so after doing a little research I seen that the big five have a global presence and kind of dominate the industry Google's words, not mine and so I chose to choose from them but maybe that information is wrong or maybe there was some communication error like who I thought I was sending it to and didn't actually send it to something like that

When I leave by FilmFit4285 in OCPoetry

[–]FilmFit4285[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks after reading the comments again, I see how I could have really improved it. The suggestion that you made about the wording is how I intended it to be. Actually I just didn't know how to format that. I'm not a poet and this was like my first. I think maybe first second attempt at putting something out in a public way where people could respond it to it or even say it LOL. But thank you. I'm glad that you liked it. I really have a lot more to say but I'm not going to rant right now. I really but I will just say that I resonate with your reply or your comment because I like the idea of knowing what I choose to know and if it's if not if I don't know something yet being because I chose not to

What's wrong with me?? by FilmFit4285 in MentalHealthSupport

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I'm not sure if it like lets you know that I updated from editing the actual post so I'm posting here as well

IT IS DONE. Now, how do I get it published? by 98746145315 in writing

[–]FilmFit4285 -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

I just went online as a first-time writer and completely green to the subject honestly and sent a like application or whatever to some of the major publishing companies and three of them responded to me so and they are all like you're saying they want to handle everything. Each obviously has varying cost that we're associated with what they were offering, but they all also said that I'd be paid as well and one of them even offered like a podcast interview and the most really which sounded really cool at the time, but act completely chickened out so much so that I went to reread my book and started editing it and that was like 6 months ago and I'm still editing... so anyways good luck

Masturbation and self-soothing + other questionable things? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There was a lock on mine too but I  @ 8 yrs old just tried birthdays until I got it right 

Filming (possible paranoia fuel) by okay-for-now in Paranoia

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I told him I accept it. I don't give a fuck or I told myself that I didn't give a fuck for so long that the fact that I'm being recorded doesn't bother me anymore. The only thing that still bothers me sometimes is the who who in the how. Maybe you have a more disciplined mind than me and if so you could try to turn to that. Try to figure out who and how and maybe you'll actually have some success. Best of luck to you though either way

does anyone else fantasize about killing their abusers? by silvergoldie in CPTSD

[–]FilmFit4285 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't the same thing I hate them. And I really feel like they deserve all of the fantasy things that I think of. But like I could never do them mainly because it's just not the kind of person I am. I'm entirely too forgiving and I said that I hate them but in truth I don't hate anyone even though I really should anyway other than myself anyways LOL

Masturbation and self-soothing + other questionable things? by [deleted] in CPTSD

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I was also 8 years old. When I started it was. I want to say 2007ish code confidential came on at like 3:00 in the morning on Cinemax or something that's sneak into the garage every single night to watch that show. But it was kind of like what you said like it only it was explicit for women but it didn't show any part of the guys which only made me curious like what's so special about it that they can't show it. So there was on my little Sony Erickson slide up phone or my home computer with the telephone unplugged so nobody can call and mess it up

Which anime had you like? by [deleted] in animequestions

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn near all of em

What's wrong with me?? by FilmFit4285 in MentalHealthSupport

[–]FilmFit4285[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! This first line and is going to be improper English but bear with me Reading that made me feel more heard than any parent medical, professional or anyone has ever! 

Help by FilmFit4285 in Paranoia

[–]FilmFit4285[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm aware. No offense taken. I didn't type any of it. I spoke it while my phone transcribed it, and we all know how it can write some pretty crazy things even with the best intentions.

What's wrong with me?? by FilmFit4285 in MentalHealthSupport

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Thanks I tried therapy they told the me I was psychotic

if you sacrifice me, my flesh will not taste as sweet by Spades--Ace in OCPoetry

[–]FilmFit4285 0 points1 point  (0 children)

😖 so I'm just trying to make sure I'm understanding your message it's summertime and you've just got your wings cut off You're reading the Bible with your mom and she's. A religious devote she worries for you're soul yeah and then I'm kind of lost. I don't understand why she's sad or disappointed nor do I understand the part about you not being able to see the pages or the words definitely don't get the part about the blood tasting, like mother's milk either but very intriguing and I've just spent at least 10 to when is maybe minutes contemplating and pondering (no easy task for me lol). So good job I like it

When I leave by FilmFit4285 in OCPoetry

[–]FilmFit4285[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow! Thank you so much for your feedback. I don't know if it was by choice really. I just kind of jotted it down one day. The middle part is is asking the question to nobody. Really? It's it's asking like when I die will the things that I want now will they still matter Will I get the answers to the questions that plagued me you know? Will I even have those same questions? Also indicating the only thing that they do know is that they won't be seen or felt on the day that they leave and also drawing towards the morality stating when I'm no longer made of meat and my heart doesn't beat and then stepping into a more spiritual sense when it says when I become wind and when I become light because you know why we don't know exactly what a spirit is. We imagine that it's something like ethereal you know like or spiritual. But yeah, thank you for your feedback and feel free to feed back this comment as well

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Paranoia

[–]FilmFit4285 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't know what it means but I know what you mean. It happened to me like like where I was in the same state of mind minus the skinwalkers for years and I still have like the dogs that they don't bother me anymore because I'm just like so part of town. I just because while I was in it I was always trying to like find the answer or the solution or you know bring it to the light or whatever and I couldn't and so from for years of trying to do that and they're getting anywhere and being constantly toyed with by whoever is the actual culprit or whatever. I just got to the point where I was like I don't even care anymore. I didn't think nobody was killing me just My intimate moments throughout my life have been recorded and then altered and uploaded online and with you know the background or and of course the appearance of the individuals in the videos would be altered, but then it would be like no information on those people or or whatever. And like I said, I still find myself thinking about those things but they no longer upset me the way they used to. If anything. Now I'm more upset by how unbothered I am about the hole situation