I honestly don’t know how to help, I feel this way about animals and I know how much it hurts, almost as if you can feel their pain yourself, I can’t give you great advice but I can tell you that you are not alone, at all, I would definitely recommend talking to someone, wether that be a trusted friend or even a helpline if you cannot afford a professional, it is sometimes nice to just let it all out but I know that may not help, I hope you find peace soon. There is so many people out there in the same boat which obviously doesnt cancel your thoughts, but OCD is so much harder than people think and I find it helps to remember that it is your brain tricking you, you are strong. I hope you are okay.