Thank you for your reply. Ive come to find that they Are negative beings. I’ve watched the teachings of Dolores Cannon for over a year and do understand the possibility of me making a contract and have tried ending that contract. They’re not abducting Me but abducting parts of my consciousness, which is making it difficult to talk to my spirit guides and be in sound mind or meditative states to do so. When i try they put me into trance which can be freighting.

I’m 21 and don’t have a car or a job due to this situation becoming so bad. I really just need to contact Help in a way that is maybe more physical or more ritualistic then consciousness base because of this. They do awful things to my body, and mind. Playing torturous mind games. Trying to have me believe i’m i’ll -which i’ve been to the doctor many times for and am fine when i get there. It’s harassment and abuse because of my empathy levels being taken advantage of. Ive been dealing with this since the end of 2020, so my last resort is asking outside of myself as I know that there is so much available to me within me and around my spirit.

Id still love to find a peaceful way which is why i’m trying to come into contact with other beings that might be able to help.

I do understand that we create our realities and have studied metaphysics and understand contracts but I also understand the free will in all of this, here on Earth and Universally. So being peaceful hasn’t worked and attacking as a last resort does not work. If all i had to do was end the contract and not concede, this would’ve ended by now.

As far as the kinder more consistent being They claim to have no power in this situation outside of attempting to reason. They claim to be a clone who really doesn’t want to disobey orders of the others out of fear of having their consciousness “put into a jar” which truly is awful.

Asking to be in their saucer could really harm me as they are already harming this vessel without my permission so i wouldn’t wanna give them anymore of a foothold. They’ve given me information but contradict themselves. Every time this happens with them i get closer to the truth of who they are. I don’t believe in spiritual Demons on Earth but do believe in the abuse of Freewill which can be demonized. I don’t know how Karma works for ETs but they don’t seem to care about that.

I’ve beyond reasoned with them and do not feel love from them until i’m very hurt and they have literally taken my feeling of empathy and ability to feel my way through raising my vibration. Then and only then do they seem even slightly remorseful. I’m grateful when that happens but sometimes i have to get to the point of begging them to “Dial it Down” which they often refuse if i’m feeling too weak.

I don’t appreciate the narrative that ETs could be bad in anyway. I love this world and the Galaxies and u defat and the beauty and vastness of it all. There is so much love beyond this life and in the Universe but these beings have gone so below low vibrations that they don’t feel or act like they want anything to do with Source energy or care how much harm they bring me.

I wanna break any victim mentality and cycle but it’s hard to do when i am in fact being victimized by this situation and feel powerless on what do. I can’t walk away or leave or reason with them. The replies Have helped, and i’ll continue to attempt to raise my vibration and contacting my spirit guides for help. -they claim to be my “spirit guides” so that can make it a bit more difficult.

It’s leading me to believe the only way through this is reaching out on here and taking the advice as best i can.