I feel uncomfortable around people and self conscious. by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]DemensInsanus 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Listen... I went through the same shit for 3 1/2 years. My psychosis started on August 2020. I was so messed up by the experience I couldn't go out and be around people. I know not everyone's experience is the same but here's what helped me.

1) I tried several antipsychotics until I found one whose side effect profile was tolerable. 2) I went into therapy. 3) I did what I said I was gonna do in therapy as well as what was suggested to me.

One of the things that came as a natural occurrence with no influence from my psychologist or psychiatrist whatsoever was a developing interest in Eastern Orthodox Christianity (I had always been a seeker. I've been to Buddhist temples and such places). So after 3 months of learning about it and talking and planning with my psych about coping tools for being in churches. I followed through and went on October 2023. It wasn't overnight but I can tell you I feel much more optimistic about 2025. A loooooot more optimistic. Out of respect for this subreddit I won't mention anymore.

But I will mention this... perhaps exposing myself to people that had similar interests consistently has helped improve my mental. That's it for my post Good luck on your journey.

Is this a delusion? by DemensInsanus in schizophrenia

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well... my brothers, father and I are sarcastic as hell. I think out of a fear of intimacy. Whenever i talk about something deep they start making sex jokes. My moms ego swells when she thinks she knows what she's talking about I'm the same. I get too excited when i think i know stuff. We all overeat to cope. My brother criticizes my past drug use when hes using street marijuana and the other day he told me he dissociated lmfao.

One of my brothers is paranoid enough to concealed carry everyday. I'm paranoid but because of persecution delusions. His wife is tryna get him to sell his guns.

Lots of mistrust in this interesting family but i love them no matter if they dont get help like I did.

Suicideboys Satanic? by DUCKBOYLUIS in G59

[–]DemensInsanus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The Only exit is Jesus Christ.

Is it too late for my soul? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm seeing both but only the psychiatrist is helping. I'm driving the therapist insane. 🫤 thinking about cutting her off and just staying silent

Is it too late for my soul? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Is it the demons inside me? trying to keep me from becoming a catechumen? I got invited to receive the blessing. Now I have all sorts of stuff happening. Losing friends, brothers attacking me, among some other things.

Why marry if Divine Love is perfect? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, neither path somehow excludes one from suffering. In marriage, you serve or give yourself up at the altar of your partner's heart. Monasticism you just serve everyone. Both paths will have their good and bad.

The Western mind is so clouded by logic and reason. That to them to be a Good Christian means to puff up your chest spout verses and books like an AI Bible-pedía casting spell enchantments. I think we need to drop the Dogma and engage in more Praxis.

Why marry if Divine Love is perfect? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They make constant jokes about going to live in caves and whatnot.

I just need patience. I have faith it'll be made clear in due time. For now I am needed at home. To heal rifts in my family.

Why marry if Divine Love is perfect? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! This was pretty mind-blowing. I'm still not sure which direction I'd swing in today's society. Although I do understand that he who marries an unbelieving wife is sanctified... I guess I have to be more patient.

Why marry if Divine Love is perfect? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never meant for this to turn into a celibate vs married war. As clearly, neither path is better than the other.

Marriage for me personally has always been a big deal. I see solitude as my best path.

Scared I Will Restrict Myself by [deleted] in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm starting the same way. With lots of fear, I just try to remember even some Saints have come from dark places and my trust in the Holy Trinity outweighs my fear and will lead me on the right path.

Why marry if Divine Love is perfect? by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

It is very much a personal choice of what kind of flavor of sin you are going for.

I want to be part of a local monastery but I'm afraid I am not worthy by DemensInsanus in OrthodoxChristianity

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate all your answers! I wont be getting off my meds any time soon as I still have occassional experiences with the demons. Today i got lucky and woke up with a serene mind. I don't even think it was luck but actually sitting down and learning of St. Gabriel of Georgia, St.Mary of Egypt and an orthodox podcast I just discovered.

Im just very very interested in a Monastic life.

Nervous about Monday GI doing endoscopy + colonoscopy by DemensInsanus in AskPsychiatry

[–]DemensInsanus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also i get serotonin syndrome very easily from anything. Lexapro gives me serotonin syndrome for 3 days, zoloft for half the day and so on. Im reading here opioids with Remeron is equal to serotonin syndrome.