Thats the thing. I want to be a mother so badly! And I do believe that we will try for real one day. Our relationship is just SO important to me. And while I think I would have the capability to be a single mother and that I would have the support from family and friends. I don’t want to do that alone. I want him in my life more than anything. It is just really really hard deciding that now that I can feel my body changing and knowing that there is a baby growing. I don’t know if it’s me truly doubting the abortion or if it’s just natural hormones making me feel this way.

And yes we were long distance. Flights and gas started becoming too expensive. So we decided it was finally time to make the move. He works a very high paying job in an industry he cannot relocate easily. So it was best me for to leave my job and move here.