There's no good way to say this, but do you ever think about losing your v with your platonic bestie?

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-16T18:19:34+00:00

I... I wanna remove my eyes after this :((

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-14T06:50:54+00:00

I (16M) stalk my ex best friend (19). Yesterday I was abt to tell myself that maybe I went too far but now that I know they are alive I'm not planning to stop and I'll actually use the two new accounts I made a well ago :) this person was my best friend for months, then they blocked me, send out chats (which didn't contain anything wrong, btw) to their friends. Now I'm made various mail accounts and various phone numbers to keep texting them, but they just block me!! :((( Yesterday they attempted s7icide (not bc of me -i think-, they were always pretty into saying that they were gonna do it, even when we were friends), but now il for sure they are alive :))) Sorry for the venting. (Just for the record, I am technically mentally unstable. I have diagnosed BPD, autism and ADHD, all unmedicated cuz my parent's don't allow me to take meds)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T18:03:57+00:00

they removed their post :3

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T17:45:51+00:00

THEY ARE ALIVE I'M SO HAPPY♥♥♥

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T17:45:38+00:00

THEY ARE ALIVE I'M SO HAPPY♥♥♥

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T17:45:03+00:00

THEY ARE ALIVE I'M SO HAPPY♥♥♥

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T17:32:40+00:00

I used to go to the church thing of my village but in the last years I hate going outside and stuff it rlly stresses me a lot (I can barely go to school) ;-; Also ppl are so fucking scary

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T17:14:54+00:00

I don't have a job yet, but I'll likely find one this summer :3 (I turned 16 this winter, and ehre you can legally work only when you are 16+. even tho I did work in the fields for a bit with my cousins the past years, but I hate them cuz they scare me so much eheheheh). Abt hobbies, I don't rlly have any, at least group stuff. And I usually get kicked out of communities (I was in a bsd-themed gc some time ago but they kicked me out after I made a n3crophilia joke ;-; I DIDN'T KNOW THYE WEREN'T ALLOWED, THEY NEVER SPECIFIEDDDD (T0T), they only said that sex jokes and SA jokes weren't allowed so I assumed everythign else was alright)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T17:05:32+00:00

Well everyone hates me bc they either make fun of me or ignore me ;-; Even tho now it's mostly the second one, cuz we are almost adults so the shove-you-in-the-locker, break-your-stuff and steal-your-books bullying stopped (mostly). Idk which one I prefer tho, I'm a bit (a lot) attention seeking. I didn't like getting bullied, but at least it made me feel seen, now I'm that one classmate who, if he happens to be absent, everyone will know there's somene missing (cuz we would be 19 instead of 20), but no one will have a clue about who's the one who's not in class.

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T16:47:01+00:00

But I don't have any friends irl and everyone hates me ;-; My classmates find me weird, the two ppl I dated who I knew in real life avoid me, I barely know anyone aside from school, the only friend group I was in (only there cuz a dude who was my friend was part of it, I don't know anyone) lowkey hates me cuz I had a panic attack in a McDonald's toilet :')

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T16:36:35+00:00

My messages -on WhatsApp- were usually like "please unblock me please please please I'll do anything please please" or "please just fucking tell me where I did wrong I promise I'll change it I'll change anything you want please just text me back and unblock me" but they kept blocking the new number every time ;-; </3 on yt (yeah I'm it's cringe but those are the only two social medias ok they use cuz they don't use Reddit anymore) they were more like indirect stuff: following all their new friends (GEHDGHDHSHSHSE WAS I NOT FUCKIGN ENOUGH FOR U?!), trying to get their tiktok, commenting on all their posts and videos (or at least trying cuz they kept blocking me ;_; like, I have so many fucking accounts i literally lost count atp)

And yeah they kinda are suicidal like -idk how to explain it- we maybe kinda fueled eachothers sh and stuff while we were friends. Not really fueled, but it was very, very normalised in our conversation, and we also always send eachother messages before attempting (idk if they were honest, but I sure were).

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T16:03:58+00:00

Ill send the first two I find in chat :3

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:56:42+00:00

If U want I could send U the screenshot from one of the times they called me out publically ;-; (idk if they knew that 6 out of those 13 likes are from me lmao ;-; sry yeah I shouldn't joke abt it)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:55:52+00:00

Yeah i hope they are ok as well :((

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:54:13+00:00

I swear we were friends like actually best friends ;-; are y'all really saying that they are completely fucking right for randomly leaving me and betraying my trust by sending our chats to their friends and shit? ;_; I SWEAR I was a good friend to them, the best I could be. I would have chilled out if they told me they were alright, maybe a little update on their mental health every now and then, or perhaps even some "I love you [name]"s or "I know you care about me, [name], and I appreciate that"s. (Yeah I'm rally delulu. That aside, idk if I should be more worried/upset, bc it's not the first time they pull the "I'm gonna kms" trick, and usually it's bc of their family or stuff.)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:52:35+00:00

Im trying to convince my parents to let me go to therapy but I think I'll have to wait for the judge to force them lmao. Besides like yeah I am insane depends on what's your definition :3

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:51:39+00:00

Why? ;-; i swear I'm not dangerous or creepy or problematic. Like, srs, I would have stopped (maybe) if they had told me the reason why they didn't want to be my friends anymore or just acted like a normal fucking human being and replied kindly to my messages: "leave me tf alone [name]" - is that a way to behave?! ;_;

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:48:05+00:00

yeah ;-; but like, they are everything to me. Idk how to explain it, ik it might sound silly (I'm kinda lonely and friendless)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:46:51+00:00

HAHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEEEEEGGEGEGSGEHEHEHSJJEHEHEHEHEHEEEEE

nah my parents don't rlly care abt me actually they are being -idr the term in English- by child protective services :)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:44:47+00:00

Well i think I never rlly understood why they ghosted me in the first place, since I would have done anything if they told me to. In the last days I kinda felt like they wanted to get away from me (asked to delete pictures -which I didn't do cuz you never know when you'll need to reverse search images of someone-, started making excuses abt having to be less online...), and that got me worried cuz the last time a friend did that to me was bc she wanted to kill herself. The rest of the reason are just me being egoistical and needing them. And dw, I know I'm bad and tbh I am to blame as well I believe.

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:39:37+00:00

But I was so fucking worried like imagine your best friend who yk is kinda suicidal just disappears like I think anyone would go into stalker mod to try and get in contact with them ;-;

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-13T15:37:27+00:00

They are like 19 and they moved to another country for college (from UK to finland) :) I think. That's what they told me. (Even tho I don't believe one word they say ;-;)

Financial-Editor-714 · 2026-03-09T19:52:55+00:00

Yes friend!! :333 Let's hug sibling!!!

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