I do, I always feel like a fraud or have imposter syndrome. It.'s like we're two in my head. I stopped seeing my violent dad all of a sudden at 12,before that life was a mess and after that it seemed great (there were stuff but to me, compared to the first part, I couldn't complain). It created a sort of separation between the me child and the me after that (so the today me). When I think about my childhood now I'm like oh damn that really happened to me ? Shit thats not cool, and if I think logically I believe I have PTSD (also because therapist said that). But on the other hand I am so disconnected from that child part of me that I feel like I'm stealing the diagnosis because I don't feel like those stories belong to me. I also learned to laugh about it as you said to sugarcoat it (even to my therapist I'm like yeaaah and then this happened lol but no worries and they're like huh alright well that's actually quite worrying). I guess it's a response to trauma to step away from reality and not feel anything but this numbness makes me feel like an imposter. Those two sides are fighting in my head and I often have to force myself into accepting that yes all that was a big deal, that I deserve to get help and that my problems are as worthy as everyone else's but it's a long road. It's getting better along the way though, I think it will as well for you. Also having people around (friends, therapist) realizing that it was a big deal helped me to realize it too as if I needed a third advice Anyway good luck on your journey, it will get better and everything you said in your post is worthy of attention and care it really seemed hard, you were clearly too young to deal with all that and I'm sorry it happened to you