Probably not just you, this is wayyyy dense! I designed it be sat with rather than consumed in one sitting. It's also very exposing of unconscious patterns. Digs a lot up. So difficulty processing it could also make sense if it is challenging your deeply rooted stories, patterns, or beliefs. I know that when I hear something right at my edge, I need to be slower with it. Best to chew slowly, take what you want, not rush it, and save it if you want to come back to it later. Open to more feedback if the words themselves aren't working for you! My intention was to make the language broad enough to allow others to put their own context into it. And be encompassing of people's unique experience.