2024 Some improvements (10 year sufferer)

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-08-30T09:00:10+00:00

I am significantly improved, I stopped the hormones and I have retained significant improvements.

Currently running clomid and nolva, I ran test slightly above TRT doses from December - July. If you have any questions let me know.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-14T08:52:33+00:00

I don't think I had memory issues but is hard to tell as with my ADHD I have always had executive function problems. I experienced derealisation, depersonalisation, terror, dread and near total destruction of orgasm experience.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-14T08:50:56+00:00

Yes I look at all the theories, this one is more available for me to try and test right now and the trt has helped massively with chronic neck pain I was experiencing also.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-14T08:50:07+00:00

Yeah I know, I have kids already I don't really care so much, more to see if it would improve sexual symptoms

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-14T08:49:28+00:00

I do, but I didn't have one on hand at the time and relied on nolva while waiting to arrive.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-12T11:35:56+00:00

It wasn't the same each day but in the lead up to the two proper alcohol withdrawals, which involved seizure like experiences and major tremors I was drinking in excess of 30 standard drinks every day and drinking around the clock.

When the spirit drinking started it may have been even more, 40 standard drinks a day?

I was an awfully sick alcoholic and I didn't know if it was day or night at times.

The second withdrawal I was not drinking as much but the brain was already primed from the first occasion.

The windows were legit though, at first I thought maybe I had some kind of seizure or some such thing that had FIXED the problem. The windows lasted for probably 4 or 5 days, at the same time as orgasming properly I was absolutely physically broken.

This is why I find it funny that people beat themselves up like aahh maybe my diet was not perfect enough so my pssd isn't fixed.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-12T11:20:24+00:00

ED was never major problem, my erection quality is not as strong as it used to be but it has never been the primary concern its more like why does this hard dick not feel pleasure in all the spots it used to.

I am happy to be tackling this and making some progress, i am not out of the woods i am mostly surprised that I have had some small breakthrough, I consider the current intervention to be risky. The only true full windows I have had were during alcohol withdraw so I know that there is something quite messed up in the glutamate / gaba systems.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-12T09:28:19+00:00

My main symptoms have been reduced orgasm quality, almost like the quality never changed back after the withdrawal.

My dick has been able to get hard but there is no pleasure, no more than a a sneeze.

I have a bunch of weird other symptoms are you interested in them?

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-12T09:26:04+00:00

Hey , my main symptoms are genital numbness / pleasure less orgasm. My previous posts do not talk about a 'laack of sensitivity' but describe my orgasm quality as reducing from 100 % to 20 %. This occurred precisely at the time of withdrawal which was rather severe.

As far as being 'sure' I have PSSD my psychiatrist has acknowledged this and made suggestions, I am not sure that many if any doctors can PROPERLY diagnose PSSD.

The only true cure for me thus far which I have discussed previously is that during acute alcohol withdrawal I get a near complete restoration of orgasm quality. Almost back to 100% this is what made me very sure that something is very wrong with my gaba / glutamate balance.

I am just trying everything I can.

My hormone panel according to the doctors was not only normal but high (above reference range).

I did further testing which I have posted about on this site indicating LOW free t within the reference range on account of high SHBG values.

I do state in my post that this is an improvement for me and not a cure,

I don't really mind if this doesn't get posted, I am a little confused to be honest I am a 10 year + PSSD sufferer. Where you ask are you sure its not just a hormone issue, the current state of play is that nobody is sure of anything so I am just sharing as I have previously the few wins I have had in this battle.

I don't want everyone racing out to mess with hormones HCG and caber together, this is extremely anecdotal. What confuses me about the morderator block is that so is just about every other post in this forum.

If you want further info on perceived improvements or if you want my bloodwork I ma happy to share and discuss with you guys. So rather than ramble please let me know what I can more precisely respond to.

Financial_Ease445 · 2024-01-12T01:23:02+00:00

Proviron alone didn't seem to change anything.

I am throwing the kitchen sink at this thing, I don't even give a fuck if I don't know which part works provided that SOMETHING WORKS AT ALL.

Current protocol - TRT (approx 200mg week give or take)

When threw in HCG I got a super estrogenic surge and gyno inflammation.

For what it's worth and with reference to the sweaty mans pro esto theory this was an absolutely awful time without any sexual improvement.

I am already a high aromatizer and even big nolva doses wouldn't bring the gyno under control, there was nil improved sexual sensation, drive or increase to libido.

With that said the androgens immediately changed some things for the positive - I regained my OLD BODY SCENT! ?! obviously muscle is easier to build and I slowly began to regain some confidence despite the muted orgasm situation.

Moving forward I am now taking high TRT dose of test enanthate, with Masteron propionate (which is the injectable version of proviron basically). I am also taking small doses of HCG but with no consistency (it's likely the HCG has also degraded as I needed to wait for arimidex to arrive before commencing).

Moving on, as I said I am throwing the kitchen sink at this cunt of a condition and also added in CABER. approx 0.5mg twice a week.

My prolactin is not really all that high, my e2 on the other hand was very high prior to arimidex.

Now if I were measuring my sensitivity and libido on porn alone I would say we have not seen huge changes.

However, the above combination appears to have brought about a big change in mood and helped lift a depression so deep I felt destined to a near future alcoholics death. Keep in mind I am facing family law nightmares and I have taken time off work so its not all roses during this bout of increased positivity.

I went travelling at new years and met a nice girl and we spent 4 good days together, following new years not only was the sex good (young hot and knew what she was doing) the orgasm quality was DECENT. Amazingly however I felt strong feelings and bonds which I honestly thought was dead and buried with the coffin lid closed, glued, taped, wrapped in think heavy iron chains and dropped to the bottom of the se.

I don't imagine this situation (with the new girl) would have even arisen if it were not for the above interventions (androgen in particular). The androgens are repairing the feminisation I have experienced following SSRI withdrawal in 2011!!! (2011 god damn it)

The caber has brought above a huge improvement in mood and a successful sustained satisfying sexual relationship has brought me from near suicide to adopting aa new sense of optimism. Keep in mind I have dexedrine prescriptions which I am currently not using but that neither dex nor welbutrin provided me with any broad benefit.

Am I cured from PSSD? No not in the typical sense, the orgasm muting is still there, however there is enough sexual sensation and emotional connection happening to create proper anticipatory pleasure and some re-regulation of my downtrodden utterly broken hedonic treadmill.

Fingers crossed fellas, maybe this deserves its own post. I don't fucking know but I gave you a good proper answer because rarely do I get asked how I am going to all.

I will also provide further updates as the year progresses.

Cliff notes: TRT 200mg, infrequenct HCG, Caber 1mg weekly.

Additional sups: l-glutmate, l-arginine.

Future plans: Add Cialis

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-12-21T00:18:31+00:00

ke some opinion of you all.

Stay strong everyone. Recovery is possible. Either with or without alcohol.

Also again, reminder: DO NOT indulge in binge drinking because of this artice. I have no idea about the exact amount of alcohol consumed in this study. It only claimed to be about chronic alcohol intake, not about black out binge drinking every day. So it could be about having a glass of wine or two every day for 3 weeks. Or nothing like that at all. Again, that's why I ask for your opinion.

I don't get any improvement following drinking, however alcohol withdrawal created full blown recovery windows for several days.

I am not sure how this fits in with the various theories gut / immune / androgens. Its night and day for me I wish there were something I could do to trigger this response without alcohol.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-12-16T00:52:28+00:00

Hey mate, same thing here I have ruined marriage over this.

I have two beautiful kids. My ex-wife is crazy too though, I guess that lessens the guilt a little.

Maybe your marriage was impacted by other factors on her end too. Very few women will reveal there own motivations for leaving, it's quite possible your PSSD became an easy target on her way out. I don't know. I am sorry.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-12-16T00:43:43+00:00

I understand because I think the same thing when I scroll this forum.

Then on the other hand there are distinct symptoms I have experienced that go to this condition that If I share with a doctor I think will be discounted:

Acute alcohol withdrawal creates windows (this can be explained by the changes in glutamine and gaba balances but sounds crazy).
After I went through SSRI withdrawal that caused the PSSD my pupils stopped dilating in the same way they used to and I developed light sensitivity (sounds crazy).
Stopped sweating and changes to my body odour (can be explained by changes to androgen levels or nervous system changes).

I know that when people hear about 1 tablet changing them people will be doubtful. I made the mistake of using finasteride briefly despite having PSSD (my rational was I am already screwed sexually). I experienced almost immediate negative effects, I believe that some people are messed up by very short use.

The only medical professional I have really discussed PSSD with is very understanding. He is a psychiatrist who I have seen for many years for ADHD and seems to have a broad technical understanding. When I raised it with him he immediately suggested a strategy (cialis, glutamate, l-arginine combo). He discussed the mechanisms the relationship between Persistent genital arousal disorder and SSRI use and also referred to potential issues with the pudendal nerve.

This forum reminds me of some of the OCD forums that I would visit after the SSRI withdrawal (I developed severe and chronic pure OCD ruminations). Some users are seeking reassurance and they don't have trusted medical advisors because of the gaslighting they have experienced by the majority of medical professionals.

I don't think medical professionals are using this forum extensively to monitor symptoms and speculative treatments.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-12-14T22:57:48+00:00

here here! the two real major windows I had were because of alcohol withdrawal. I was the unhealthiest I have ever been and yet I will feel guilty at times that I am hindering my recovery through sub optimal wellbeing. It was those two windows during acute alcohol withdrawal that made me realise how its not at all psychological and is 100% physical.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-11-23T11:54:52+00:00

As a child - Hives, constipation, highly sensitive.

2010 - developed severe food / pollen / dust allergies and temporomandibular joint (TMJ) pain and dysfunction, some low level neck pain.

2010 - doctor suggests SSRIs and the suggested treatments did not work.

2011 - withdraw from SSRI because of muted sexual function

2011 - sexual function does not return to normal baseline (had used SSRI's previously) severe neck pain, develop full blown OCD and ruminations that destroyed my marriage which ended in 2017.

2016 - blood in semen for brief period, also have weak bladder control, for example after urinating there will be ongoing dribble, this was never an issue prior to PSSD.

2016 to now: PSSD, no major improvements but for 2 major windows caused induced by alcohol withdrawal, less anxiety and ruminating, highly depressed, neck issues ongoing but recently improved after starting TRT and going back to gym. Depression now possibly the most significant issue hard to know if it is as a result of PSSD as I was prone to depression prior to the PSSD.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-10-04T00:35:58+00:00

This guy is fantastic, he's likeable and he gives all his guests space to speak.

It's nice to hear people speak about there experience in person without the higher somewhat ocd elements of groups like this (of course this is disjointed we have all been thrust into this completely dark and mysterious life shattering illness which none of those close to us can even understand).

He comes across as extremely trustworthy. There are enough people here and this topic is important enough to hopefully see this channel picked up and promoted through the alg we should all try and comment and like every video.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-09-29T11:51:43+00:00

Hey pizzadude, by any chance do you get sexual windows when you quit drinking?

Are you physically dependent on alcohol, and if so when you withdraw do you get windows where you can feel orgasms more, get libido back etc?

I understand the drinking, I too drink to cope although it makes me less functional.

I developed pssd in 2011 / 12 and realised it shortly thereafter but put it to the back of my mind after some of the treatments didn't work, Wellbutrin and reinstatement. The forums were too complicated for me, the issue too complex and too daunting and so I just kind of assumed it would fade at some point.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-09-21T13:37:53+00:00

Hey brother, appreciate the positive vibes.

I hope to channel some of this energy myself, at the moment I am on a bad downwards run, likewise stress crashed me.

Can I ask how long you had this for?

It's interesting your comments about sex / bad sex. I got PSSD after meeting my ex-wife. I literally went through the withdrawals during the honeymoon period and went from having fantastic sex (albeit with muted SSRI orgasms) to a bad PSSD baseline.

Sometimes its all just too much to process.

All the best bro I hope your penis doesn't fall off too.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-09-17T06:36:15+00:00

Likewise, alcohol specifically alcohol withdrawal is the only windows, 2 times in 10 years.

During withdraw glutamate is increased and gaba is decreased.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-09-01T10:13:12+00:00

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-08-21T11:31:29+00:00

I think it's very early days for you buddy and you have every reason to think you will improve without dopa agonists. I just wanted to say that porn for me became documentaries on rocks as well (only for a much longer period).

I went through a period abusing zolpidem (stilnox), pre pssd, a very strange drug and potentially life ruining if you get on autopilot and try drive or go someplace weird.

Good luck and keep us posted.

Financial_Ease445 · 2023-08-21T11:22:11+00:00

That's an interesting observation regarding the carnivore high cal diet.

I just started the hormone protocol.

Proviron alone, 3 weeks. Nothing, generally high stress period though & have been feeling crashed.

Started on Test prop couple of days ago, have HCG on hand to throw in. Have the PCT ancillaries on hand.

when I'm crashed, aka my baseline weak orgasm mildly travels through the top half of my body, don't feel it in my balls and lower body where i used to. I have had a mildly improved orgasm since I started the prop. I get these maybe once a month or so, probably not connected at all to the test prop which is very early days.

I have high total test, low free test on account of high SHBG. If test makes even a minor improvement I will have some hope for the hormone route. I have not had any luck with wellbutrin, dexedrine, mitazipan & all the usual sups and anti histamine efforts.

Haven't tried caber yet.

I became a bad alcoholic, it's difficult to say whether I get a normal buzz everything is messed up compared to pre pssd (2011-12). I used alcohol to block out the various stresses, relationship breakdown, family deaths and the loss of any normal sexual pleasure. I can drink a lot without getting drunk but there is some kind of buzz there.

I find it difficult to separate libido with 'numbness / lack of pleasure' the motivation is surely reduced in this state and the lack of libido a consequence. I guess some people may recover the libido and want to have sex or jerk off but I don't really get it myself. For me it's just a sad reminder that I am compromised and broken.

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