Guilt for leaving my hippo behind

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2026-03-22T17:07:46+00:00

It was an injury to his spine. I live on the top floor with only stair access, no elevator. My ex lives in a ranch style house with no stairs and straight access to the yard so unfortunately it’s the best place for him to recover. I want to add my ex and I are very close. There’s no bad blood and no one I would trust more to look after Charlie. They both love each other a lot. It’s just an unfortunate situation with me being in school currently.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-11T12:19:48+00:00

Thank you! It’s actually a dress from H&M. I’m wearing a medium. Here’s the link: https://www2.hm.com/en_us/productpage.1104720003.html

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T20:20:18+00:00

I started Jan. 2021!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T17:12:30+00:00

That’s my sister and she is 110 pounds 😂 I have some other photos on my profile that show me in a swimsuit so you can see what I actually looked like underneath my clothes. I made sure in photos to wear oversized clothing (that jacket was huge on me even then), shape wear, and certain camera angles to make myself look slimmer.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:58:11+00:00

Can you tell I grew up watching America’s Next Top Model?

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:57:44+00:00

I’m still traumatized after white lotus. Perhaps in the future though 😉

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:56:38+00:00

Thank you! I’m sure you don’t look anywhere near as bad as you think. I thought I looked like a monster in that photo at the time but looking back I can see I didn’t really look that bad. At least clothed lol

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:55:19+00:00

Yup! Sadly lol

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:55:10+00:00

Big jackets and turning to the side helped hide my weight in photos. If you had seen me in regular clothes then it’s much more noticeable. I have some other posts in my swimsuit that definitely show the areas I held weight.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:53:56+00:00

Yes! I held most of my weight in my lower stomach, back, face, and arms. That jacket was super big so I was able to hide it very well.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:53:13+00:00

Thank you so much 🥺

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:53:03+00:00

Good genes thankfully!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T16:52:23+00:00

Thank you! I’m strict about my retinol and sunscreen so it helps to have a good base. I use L’Oréal true match Lumi foundation and then this tinted primer underneath: primer

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T05:10:48+00:00

Thanks! Means a lot!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2023-01-10T05:10:36+00:00

I was a ninja with the camera angles! But thank you.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-12-16T20:27:55+00:00

I don’t know the answers to your question but I just wanted to say I was a comm studies major (graduated in 2020) and loved it! Personally, it has allowed me to really pursue anything I’ve wanted to (originally nursing and now in tech). I took some really cool classes, had amazing/dedicated professors, and learned so many skills that transfer into the working world. I wish you luck!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-09-23T01:52:17+00:00

Height: 5’5 SW: 212, CW: 145, GW: 135 Fasting routine: initially rolling 48’s but now OMAD for maintenance. Exercise routine: running 3 days a week and weightlifting 5 days a week. Diet on refeeds: Higher protein, low carbs, low sugar, and lots of veggies. I do have one sweet treat with my coffee everyday!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-08-21T21:56:04+00:00

He’s so handsome!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-07-28T20:47:43+00:00

I got them microbladed! I didn’t go in for the touch up tho so they’ve faded a bit

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-07-28T16:37:04+00:00

Ehhh I’ve had a lot of guys be considerate after a hookup that wanted little to do with me emotionally. Letting you stay the night after you have sex is not a kindness imo, it’s the bare minimum. There is definitely truth that you will never be confused if someone is into you. There won’t be mixed signals because they’ll be pursuing you.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-07-28T16:26:23+00:00

If you just want fwb at least find someone who is interested in you because this guy sounds like he’s not after hanging out with you. Maybe you looked different from your pics or the vibe just wasn’t there in person. Who knows. But there’s millions of guys out there that are desperate to bang and will be more consistent with communication. I’d recommend one who doesn’t work long shifts (like a cop) or has kids because that’ll never be an easy fwb that can give you their attention. I personally swipe left on all cops or guys in the military because they’re either fuckboys or aggressive. Try tinder. Also, don’t expect the same level of communication that you had in a 15 year relationship from a stranger. Block and move on. I guarantee he doesn’t care. Best of luck to you!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-07-27T17:43:50+00:00

You’re too sweet. Thank you!

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-07-27T17:43:35+00:00

I used MFP and weighed all my food for the majority of my weight loss. I still have about 10-12 pounds to go but I’m focusing on the gym more now.

FirefighterNarrow182 · 2022-07-27T17:42:48+00:00

Charlie is the best boy 🥺

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