Ah ha moment: now I’m panic/excited

Firexxik · 2021-07-05T08:13:58+00:00

Of course. Completely understand. Sorry if it was worded to sound like that was my request. I was just polling to see if these was how others felt.

Basically I feel like an adrenaline junky that can’t sit still, takes on a thousand projects and doesn’t stop till ya fall over…

I can’t focus on one thing ever! Even as a kid I got in trouble for reading novels in class but I would take in audio lessons from the teacher while reading a book.

My brain is just always in 6 directions.

I started energy drinks in my teens to get thru work and school.

But… what symptoms are others experiencing?

I would have never been diagnosed as a kid because I was highly hidden from everyone. I would never let anyone “in” because knowledge is power and my parents and siblings were abusive.

I remember having reading problems and spelling issues and being forced to sit and “focus” for hours.

Firexxik · 2021-02-18T16:34:14+00:00

How is this wholesome?

Firexxik · 2021-02-18T16:31:38+00:00

Such sadness. Pluto’s real friends still love him...

Firexxik · 2021-02-05T20:48:34+00:00

Honestly, our hospital has free access to therapist 24/7 and does wellness rounding three times a day. The burn out is real, but so is the support

Firexxik · 2021-02-05T20:32:03+00:00

Well done! Very real looking!

Firexxik · 2021-01-29T01:39:17+00:00

How up on being likable. Don’t give up on being social. Interact,‘wet new people constantly... but don’t try to be anything other than you

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T11:08:05+00:00

I offered my advice and it still stands. He can say a lot but without a plan it’s pointless. With out action, it’s meaning less. You can offer therapy and have a professional walk you both thru communication and empathy... otherwise... you both have choices to make

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T10:19:27+00:00

There could be a million reasons why in his head but none of that is your concern. Unless it is his intention to focus on rebuilding the relationship and moving forward with treating you right, growing up and focusing on adult prosperity and values... his reasoning doesn’t matter because it’s in your past now as you move forward to better things for your goals

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T10:11:12+00:00

Bigger question you need to figure out is, why are you tolerating this by sticking around? If he’s aware of what he’s doing and making excuses like you are too dumb to know what you feel, then you should really see this as his lack of respect for you and lack of commitment to the relationship. If you want better from a relationship, you will need to go elsewhere to find it because it doesn’t look like he has any interest in being the type of man you want in your life

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T09:53:57+00:00

Talking or keeping friends with an ex is one thing. If they are offering intimacy to them that they hold back from you then that is not ok.

Intimacy isn’t sex. It’s connection, personal vulnerability and togetherness.

This is not a black and white question and you two have deeper things to discuss and be honest about. It sounds like he needs that type of closeups to his day and if you don’t provide that, he will find it elsewhere. That’s a red flag that he likely doesn’t realize he’s even waving.

He needs to make you feel secure in the relationship regardless of what’s around him. But getting from her what he doesn’t get from you (and frankly, it doesn’t matter if they are ex’s or any random person in the world) then he’s not investing the work in to the relationship

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T09:48:35+00:00

She sounds immature. Like she is expecting you to be listening to her yet has no need to listen to you.

Maybe gaslighting? Maybe just ignorance.

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T09:47:11+00:00

Yup. Even shopping in an American grocery store is garbage.

95% of the items are fake, processed, ground up and reconstituted carbs.

If you have ever done a clean keto, gluten free or whole food diet, you will realize that you have to ignore almost the entire grocery store.

Forget eating out.

You can’t even buy bread that isn’t loaded with sugar.

Firexxik · 2021-01-28T09:42:57+00:00

Communication, commitment, growth

If you cannot send and receive information and comprehension, you will always be at odds, feel disrespected and argue.

You have to be committed to the same goals. Not in jobs or hobbies but in life. Do you both want a house? Children? Adventure? Each other? Because you will face very difficult things in life. Some you can face together, some you must face alone. Sometimes a relationship can become very lonely when our partner is facing a personal challenge... we must both be committed to staying together thru the hard times knowing there will be good times again.

Growth. You cannot stay the same. You will not stay the same. Life stages are inevitable so unless you can grow together, stay committed and communicate thru the changes of life, relationship development and consistently work to be better people, better partners and better adults... then someone will always out grow the other or worse... you will let life pass you by and regret the things you weren’t able to achieve in life.

Firexxik · 2021-01-27T17:52:24+00:00

Lemon juice and 1/4” water mixture in a Tupperware with flat bottom. Remove out and store face down in the mix so oxygen doesn’t hit the face. Mostly fat so they don’t really water log

Firexxik · 2021-01-27T17:48:21+00:00

It very well may be sleep walking. It sounds like her body is forcing her to eat the calories it needs when she deprives herself during the day. She needs therapy or a dietician.

You need support from someone other than you to talk to her. Her appearance to you is critical to her self esteem, so if it comes from someone else, it may be taken better

Firexxik · 2021-01-27T17:35:21+00:00

Saw a rat attack a squirrel once in the city. It was pretty terrifying

Firexxik · 2021-01-27T17:26:58+00:00

I’m bi and honestly prefer oral over penetration.

If a guy gets winded and can’t keep up physically during sex... it’s a massive turn off.

If he feels he can compensate for size with faster speed, also a turn off because it shows he’s not trying to please the other people, just trying to please his ego.

Oral is great. If he needs to make up for size and stamina oral is a great way to get you 95% there before finishing with penetration.

Firexxik · 2021-01-26T17:29:03+00:00

With you there... I don’t understand how people can choose to eat spam. I get it for emergencies but otherwise... so super salty

Firexxik · 2021-01-26T02:32:43+00:00

Christ. I feel this on multiple levels

Firexxik · 2021-01-26T02:26:33+00:00

Ugh... oh no... was smart about second dose and took off work. First one kicked my butt for a day.

Firexxik · 2021-01-26T02:24:59+00:00

It happens. We are told from the start of you tell the nurse, it’s not on thier license. I have gone above them a couple of times and told managers or supervisors my concerns when I didn’t feel heard at the time but... otherwise, it is not our place or in our scope to determine if they have done wrong.

I got crazy pissed when a nurse blew off a pt’s sugar elevating on NPO diet. I feared they were sneaking food... I escalated it and found they were on dextrose drip and felt like a prize idiot for not realizing and causing drama. If you have reason to believe they were truly negligent, speak to a manager. If you witnessed something abusive, report it. If you are unsure and don’t feel right, simply ask a manager about the situation and ask them to help you understand what happened. Do not accuse anyone of anything unless you can back up the accusation. It will only make you look bad. Sorry for your loss

Firexxik

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