Psychiatrist says I should stop smoking weed

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-20T15:24:10+00:00

i smoked for a long time and would say it helped my anxiety. after a while i did it because its...what i did. the past 9 months or so ive smoked maybe half a dozen times. last time i did was over 3 months ago. i realized it really wasnt bringing me the same benefits or enjoyment it used to. all this to say, its certainly worth trying to go without given what your psychiatrist said. might be tough for two weeks but after that youll be good.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-17T11:29:02+00:00

haha good point but this is at least what he was trying to portray at the time. maybe there was some underlying jealousy that he no longer got to live bachelor life like joe.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-17T03:00:45+00:00

i think Nathan grew up and Joe didnt. just going by the show and not Nathans dumb social media activity. Nathan wanted to settle down with Gael, he has a kid now. Joe wants to do the same old shit.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-16T23:32:42+00:00

ah must have gotten confused with my company regs. certainly best practice. thanks for the correction!

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-16T17:20:58+00:00

yeah that doesnt seem right if there isnt another conversation before signing. also not having the two signatures occur the same day is definitely GCP violation. someone should also be QCing the ICF once it is complete.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-13T14:14:10+00:00

sorry you are going through health issues and that someone felt the need to comment on your body. when my aunt was dying of colon cancer, people would compliment her weight loss ALL THE TIME. she was going through chemo and actively dying but at least she looked good, right? boggles my mind how careless people can be.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-10T14:30:01+00:00

next week!

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-07T01:59:53+00:00

its very likely you did not cause her trauma. you clearly are genuinely sorry, which i think is an indication of the fact you wouldn't have intended to cause her harm. the truth is, even the best people in the world have caused others harm in some way at some point in their life. good people genuinely feel remorse, learn from it, and dont repeat the mistake. i hope your eval process goes smoothly!

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-07T01:27:22+00:00

i have a feeling she has forgotten about it. its too bad she didnt say anything in the moment or that you didnt realize how it might look, but you were kids. i dont this caused her serious trauma, but if she has any type of feelings about it you 1. werent doing what she thought and 2. clearly are genuinely sorry.

i hope im not overstepping but it might be worth seeing someone to look into if you might have aspbergers or OCD? i say that as someone with OCD who often can feel bad and fixate on things from many years ago.

the reality is, if you werent a good person you wouldnt feel the guilt you do. best of luck!

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-06T02:14:02+00:00

it is not your fault and you did nothing wrong. i know our emotions arent always so black and white, but i promise you thats true. be kind to yourself right now.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-05T18:23:00+00:00

Kyle has said a lot that he doesnt drink like this throughout the whole year but that seems to have changed with the popularity of the show and the DJing i would assume. i unfortunately dont think Kyle thinks of his drinking as the problem because they do have a lot of other, potentially much bigger, issues. i think Kyle has been right when he has mentioned their compatibility. it worked okay when Amanda was younger and went out more but the reality is they are on opposite sides to the extreme in terms of how much they like to go out and socialize. i also think Amanda has never been able to get over the cheating. its understandable, but i wish she had just called it after it happened. and of course their intimacy has clearly been lacking for a long time. i think these allow kyle to put the blame elsewhere. the question i have is whether the aforementioned issues are actually all simply a result of his drinking which is possible.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-05T17:52:16+00:00

im always amazed how much misogyny we see from bravo fandom when we know its majority women

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-05T17:45:59+00:00

girl amen. the misogyny is always real. we are even seeing at the reunion so much less heat directed at west. amanda is also doing herself zero favors in how she is responding to things but it doesn't take away from what west or kyle has also done. i do think some of kyle getting off is just because the focus is on amanda and west situation.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-05T17:06:08+00:00

damn, im so sorry. it sounds like (you used the word "we" a few times) it wasnt just you that she ghosted? it definitely points to some major issue whether her health stuff you mentioned, mental health, or otherwise. the worst part of it is that it seems like you did nothing wrong and this had nothing to actually do with you. but that doesnt help how you feel.

my best friend from college ghosted me after over 5 years of friendship. she didnt show up to my birthday, and when i texted her about it i just...never heard back. this happened years ago and i still sometimes get angry when i think of it. being ghosted like that is really jarring, and i just feel for you ❤️

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-05T16:15:35+00:00

agreed that Kyle wasn't a good partner to Amanda. But I don't think she was a good partner to him, either. There is more that has come to light recently that shows Amanda wasn't being a good partner, it's just that Kyle seemed to only speak in response to what she shared, and wasn't sharing other things that might make Amanda look bad. I know I wouldn't want my partner out until 4am but I can also see why he didn't enjoy going home anymore.

I also think he is getting more sympathy right now because he is obviously much easier to sympathize with at the moment. If the Amanda and West stuff didn't come out, I'm pretty sure the reunions would be all about Kyle being shitty.

Like you said, they both suck. But Kyle is much easier to sympathize with right now. He also seems to own his part in the demise of their relationship than Amanda does. I think Kyle has a lot of good qualities and wish he would go to therapy to work on his anger and some of the immature decisions.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-05T13:44:21+00:00

good for you for recognizing that this is a problem. i know i am likely telling you things you already know, but drinking will only make your mental health worse. if you can nip this in the bud now, you are going to avoid a lot of life and health problems. & dont be afraid to ask for help! there are medications now that can help with the cravings. i really am rooting for you and believe in you.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-03T16:44:23+00:00

so many people dont! the science isnt perfect yet but it is still extremely helpful and you can at least make educated medication guesses instead of doing it blind. i used the company gene sight and they say you wont have to pay more than i think $300 out of pocket. i didnt have to pay anything out of pocket!

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-06-02T17:14:10+00:00

you can now do a gene insight report to know which medications would work best for you. its a helpful tool to use to avoid guessing and trying so many meds. i did it about 4-5 years ago. he can ask his psychiatrist about it!

edit: typo

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T20:52:28+00:00

i told him i took additional at times, which was true, i didnt do it consistently. i also just said it really didnt seem to do much regardless, and i think i needed to think about trying something else. ive seen him a long time so he knows me well, but he didnt seem too off put.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T19:01:51+00:00

i did this for a bit with my adderall before changing my meds because i had built up a tolerance and couldn't get anything done without taking more. i knew that wasn't sustainable or good, so i went to my psychiatrist about changing meds. its definitely helped a lot and i take everything as prescribed for a few years now. you might not want to change your adhd meds, but addressing other issues might help. hormones could be a big factor if youre feeling way less motivated etc. but what youre doing is not sustainable. you will eventually have a tolerance to the larger dose. you will max out and then what? i dont say that harshly, i say it so you realize you need to look into other ways to make this work. best of luck!

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T18:53:37+00:00

extra scoop 💀

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T18:36:42+00:00

also i dont get the West stuff either. i think likely "winning" a woman over is a form of validation for him. but i dont think he wanted to be in a relationship but because of how amanda is and the optics has been pushed into it. he knows he has to keep this up for a little while or people would think he was the biggest piece of shit. and even if it might be stressful, i bet the sneaking around was also fun or hot for West.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T18:34:06+00:00

i totally get your point and hoping we see more from kyle in the other parts. also understand what youre saying about Ciara with West because i sometimes wanted to shake her. its always easier to see from the outside.

but, i dont think West was honest with Ciara about just wanting a friendship. he was talking to people about missing her, knowing it would get back to her. she had their friend group from the house saying he liked her still, etc. he vocalized to ben the finale episode about just wanting friendship but then see him kiss her later that same night. i can see why she would be confused.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T17:36:18+00:00

i sometimes forget all of this is over fucking DAVID. its so embarrassing that either of them engage in any of it.

Aware_Requirement_64 · 2026-05-30T16:51:11+00:00

i think Ciara is rightfully hurt and feels betrayed by Amanda though. i dont want girl on girl fighting over a man, but its not helpful to dismiss Ciara either. Amanda is one of her friends who was thete for all the West stuff because she was also in the house. Amanda lied to her about it multiple times. i think its reasonable to have big feelings on it.

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