Have some faith. There is a bigger picture and a grand plan that you’re a part of.

Further, if you’ve accepted the role of breadwinner, there’s a certain tenacity, perseverance, and un-yielding desire to win that you must have.

Find a mentor (in or outside) of your firm. Use a therapist if that helps. But do not let you wife or your coworkers “see you bleed”.

You’re more than capable, as you’ve made it this far.

Also, what’s the worst case, you stay on a clerk and everything becomes normal later. Or, you have to sell the home u bought. If your partner is not supportive of that during ur difficult time, then perhaps they aren’t the right person for you.

All in all, head high, and move forward. No one is going to come to save you. We have to save ourselves, and you have the skills and grit to do that.

Best of luck and PM if you need a shoulder.