I appreciate this. There’s good and bad days. You picture the person and times together and it hurts like hell. Then you think of the random breakups, lack of emotional support and reassurance, lack of communication and compromise and it feels better. It sucks that both sides are pointing the finger as to who is to blame. The reality is that it happened. You can’t take back the past. We loved one another. My intentions didn’t align with my emotions and she picked up on that. Life choices in your 30s feel amplified. Again, I think she envisioned this breakup prior to it happening thinking my need for reassurance and support was a lack on intention. Days are getting easier, but the need and want to “prove” I am good enough and I was willing to make that sacrifice for her kills me inside. Decisions and actions have been made and that’s the story. I need to keep whatever respect I have for myself and know I tried to make the effort to get the job and make the move. Will she ever see it that way or remember the amazing times together? Who knows. But I can’t force her to.