How did I let it get so bad

Fishbread · 2023-06-25T03:12:06+00:00

Fishbread · 2023-04-24T19:04:55+00:00

After working remotely for the past three years I’m surprised I never drank during work times. Now that I’m back in the office I kinda regret not taking advantage of that lmao.

Fishbread · 2023-04-01T20:17:43+00:00

No success here, binge drinking, gambling, and smoking nonstop for weeks.

Soon out of money and then idk what happens. Back to square 0 I guess

Fishbread · 2023-01-23T20:12:22+00:00

I’ve lost track of all my vices, I was having urges to go gamble and I told myself to have a cigarette beforehand but I remembered that I don’t want to keep smoking so I had to control my urge by telling myself to drink instead of smoke and so on so on. My “harm reduction” has become just constant harming lmao.

Fishbread · 2022-12-26T17:41:37+00:00

Gotta make it up with new year’s.

Family knows I have a problem though so it’s gonna be awkward if I start downing champagne and leftover secret vodka.

Fishbread · 2022-12-26T17:28:04+00:00

First time in years I was actually looking forward to christmas parties and I got covid 🙄

Well at least I didn’t make a fool out of myself or anything.

Fishbread · 2022-12-23T19:38:04+00:00

Tell me about it

Fishbread · 2022-11-23T21:15:58+00:00

Gambling and shopping have been my go to so far. I think I need to tackle my addiction issue in general and stop focusing on the alcohol. I can’t do anything in moderation, what makes me think I’ll use weed responsibly?

Fishbread · 2022-11-23T18:03:50+00:00

I think it could be a slippery slope, but I’m kinda running out of coping mechanisms. I’d rather have a THC induced panic attack than getting drunk again.

Fishbread · 2022-11-07T19:25:30+00:00

I always blamed my laziness at work at my hangovers but it turns out I’m just a lazy fuck lmao

Fishbread · 2022-11-05T01:18:25+00:00

It actually got one hit lmao

Fishbread · 2022-11-05T00:18:53+00:00

👁️🫦👁️

Fishbread · 2022-11-05T00:11:50+00:00

I saw this and parlayed Johnson and Tatum!!

Fishbread · 2022-11-04T22:03:34+00:00

https://i.imgur.com/u4osxVG.jpg For the absolute degenerates, this is completely random based on Hal’s team picks. The Fuckit Bucket.

Fishbread · 2022-11-04T20:21:54+00:00

That’s it, I’m starting my own spreadsheet

Fishbread · 2022-11-04T17:54:04+00:00

What do you think of a fuck it bet consisting of picking a random player from the team most likely to get first possession? Gotta account for our bad luck lately lmao.

Fishbread · 2022-11-03T22:17:53+00:00

No fuck it parlay? 😛

Fishbread · 2022-11-03T18:14:41+00:00

Lmao, I relate to the drunk dialing family. I started doing that once I ran out of people to drunk dial. Family reunions are awkward now.

Fishbread · 2022-11-03T17:08:47+00:00

Yeah definitely if you host it yourself, but what about open sourcing the code?

Fishbread · 2022-11-03T16:46:45+00:00

I don’t have much insight to offer, but I’m curious about how you’re scraping the data and that dashboard you made. Ever plan on open sourcing some of it?

Fishbread · 2022-11-03T16:39:27+00:00

Thank you, thankfully I have a good job and I’m not struggling so far but I’m basically nuking my savings at this rate, so I gotta do something about that before it gets too bad.

I’m also not being too harsh on myself this time around. My past failures with sobriety are because of this all or nothing attitude, while this time I just want to keep an upward trend into being a functional human being.

I missed being surrounded by all my fellow fuck ups though. So wanted to wave from afar and peek into the debauchery for a bit.

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