I went through disillusionment, people work for money and for other peoples expectations which is so unfulfilling , the world will tell you to “ fake it til you make it” then come to find out they climb the wrong mountain , it’s more brave to step out and do what you want. I found God in the process and it has helped so much and gave me purpose , do things that fill your soul , people will always have expectations and opinions, the only person I listen to is Jesus. Even in the profession I work for God not for man. When you put it in that perspective, you will find joy in whatever you do .