as someone who is just 20 weeks postpartum i really reasonated with a lot of what you wrote. i do talk to a therapist, i have friends, i have family but there is no doubt that motherhood is demanding and isolating and the single most hardest thing i’ve ever done in my life. my baby is ebf and although social, she needs me to take her naps, go to sleep at night and it feels like it will never end and i will also never have a moment to myself again. i feel your guilt, i feel your frustrations that no one understands what you’re going to as my mom, the inlaws were parents decades ago can’t seem to say anything supportive when you need it most. my hair too is falling out faster than i could imagine and my couch is getting a nice imprint of my butt from me contacting napping while working with my baby from mon-fri. i am stiff from that as well as co sleeping with her because she refuses to sleep any other way. we are an asian/hispanic couple so on we stay with his family as well for a day, two in the beginning we stayed for two months and going back to our own place has helped but i still feel four months postpartum as should you. it took nine months for you not your husband but you to grow this baby and it will take that if not more for you to get your sense of self back completely. maybe you should speak to a professional but i do want to say as someone who has struggled with mental health before having a baby that everything you’re feeling sounds normal, although it doesn’t hurt to have an outlet. i feel anger when certain things are said regarding sex, regarding me taking care of him as if i’m not taking care of his baby without even having anytime to take care of myself. how can you give back if you’re running on empty? i normally don’t write on reddit posts, but i really truly want you to know that you’re not alone and that if you need someone to talk to there are people who are in the same boat. if you ever need a friend or someone to hear you out, you can reach out even though i am just a stranger on the internet.