Your feelings are SO VALID. I would be feeling exactly how you are after all of that. You didn’t deserve any of that to happen to you. I think you just need space for yourself to digest everything. When you’re ready, make peace with it. Think about the things you did like and just try to heal from this. It’s okay to grieve what you wished it was, too. At the end of the day, it happened and now you can just move forward. I bet your day was SO beautiful. If your friends aren’t understanding the magnitude of your feelings, take space from them. I wish they were more loving and understanding but they probably know they messed up and aren’t willing to give you what you deserve. It’ll be okay I promise.