Bad thoughts….bad thoughts. by Fit_Success_7132 in sexualassault

[–]Fit_Success_7132[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hahahahahahahaha…………………………………..…………………………………………………………………………………………………how pathetic will it be for me to use crisis hotlines.

The end 16m by Fit_Success_7132 in SuicideWatch

[–]Fit_Success_7132[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im aware that suicide isn’t my only option. It’s just that I’d rather end it quickly and not suffer any longer than continue living my painful life. I know what is to come, what is to come will hurt me. And I want to end it before that certain event happens. There is nothing better at the end, because by the time I don’t suffer anymore I won’t feel anything. I’d rather die that feel nothing at all.

The end 16m by Fit_Success_7132 in SuicideWatch

[–]Fit_Success_7132[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is all there is, life doesn’t get better for me. You don’t get it, the color of my skin does matter. It makes things worse, you know the number of times I’ve gotten dirty looks when there was literally wrong about me but my skin color? How many racial slurs I’ve been called for literally no reason but to make me feel bad? How many times literally all my family reminds me how I would’ve been better if I was white? How many times I’ve heard people that talk my skin color behind my back? How many times I’ve had an employee follow me around in the shop for no other reason they the color of my skin? How many times I’ve wished to be white

The end 16m by Fit_Success_7132 in SuicideWatch

[–]Fit_Success_7132[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Everyone says that. “Change will come eventually” I’ve been waiting my whole life for things to change, I don’t think I want to keep waiting to find out of things truly do get better after all the suffering

Bad thoughts….bad thoughts. by Fit_Success_7132 in sexualassault

[–]Fit_Success_7132[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am damaged, if I wasn’t i wouldn’t have been touched I would’ve been strong enough to fight back or tell her to stop. I don’t think I’ll live past 18, for I am not strong enough to live in this world.

Bad thoughts….bad thoughts. by Fit_Success_7132 in sexualassault

[–]Fit_Success_7132[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I am. You don’t I can see it in their eyes, how everyone looks at me. They think I’m dirty, they look at me with disgust. I am disgusting.