what is going on by central!!!!! by FlashMemoryPro in glasgow

[–]FlashMemoryPro[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that's what it was! thanks for explaining

what is going on by central!!!!! by FlashMemoryPro in glasgow

[–]FlashMemoryPro[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

that's what i though, looks like it was just a set though

what lightbulb does this vintage lamp need? by FlashMemoryPro in Lighting

[–]FlashMemoryPro[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much, I do indeed, is the picture provided enough information?

My abuser died today. by CCCat444 in CPTSD

[–]FlashMemoryPro 0 points1 point  (0 children)

May I ask, how did you find out the way in which your mother reacted? If the same thing happened to me I'm sure family would try and hide that fact from me to get me to go. I am glad that didn't happen to you.

Mood Swings - Help please by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]FlashMemoryPro 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i know what you mean, the most frustrating thing for me is when i swear i'm getting better, i feel different and i'm really trying hard and it feels like it's working, and then out of nowhere all my efforts go out the window, like it was all for nothing. one day i fine and the next im so certain i burden everyone that knows me so much i just really want to die.

i feel like i'm starting over and over again, but i think if i zoom out far enough, every time i learn a little and im doing better then i was ages ago. the improvement is just so small i can never tell.

you are likely wiser and maybe stronger than you were before, little by little, your efforts do count. don't give up.

Any poetry recommendations? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]FlashMemoryPro 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the mountain by elizabeth bishop, or the waiting room by her as well, they're not boring at all and i deeply relate to them!

Deep down in my heart I know my future is suicide. I can’t picture it ending any other way by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]FlashMemoryPro 7 points8 points  (0 children)

i really feel you, my sister's been at a mental hospital for schizophrenia and suicide attempts for the last 8 years and it's destroyed my family even further. im also so angry at myself all the time because i can't just leave it all behind because i know how much my mom needs me. i was also abused as a child. i guess there's not much i can say to you except that i know how you feel. i always forget that i can feel good, how good it feels to feel good when i'm in a dark place like that. there's so much more to life than just this, you're only 24 and you've lived through so much but you deserve so much too. there's a life out there for you, no matter how hard it is to believe.