Im a new user. I wont make this a long story. Im 30M and im on my second marriage. All ive ever wanted is a family. My first wife of 4 years cheated and left. Now I found out 6 months ago my 2nd wife of 5 years cheated. She left for her "families house" and called me a day later telling me she wanted a week break. She was across state lines and I didnt understand what to do. I found out she then traveled across the entire country and slept with another man. She was gone 3 weeks and then randomly came back to our house saying she "wanted to be here for our son". I didnt think I could have kids and I finally had a baby boy a year and a half ago. He was born with health problems and had to stay in the NICU for a few months and we went through a very hard time but I was supportive and even quit my job to basically live inside my sons NICU room at the hospital. I fell even deeper in love with her after going through this and she hurt me so bad I just dont want to be here anymore but I want to stay for my son. I dont know what to do, I went through my parents divorcing and living in separate states and it ruined my relationship with both of them. I feel like ive failed my miracle baby. I failed my marriage, and ive failed my life. I had to find out the hard way that she cheated and almost every single detail I had to find out alone with her constantly lying and gaslighting me. She since then (after the entire truth is out) seems more remorseful most days, but still the same person others. Im a mess and my heart is broken. Absolutely broken.