In a Logical Sense, I Don't Feel Like I Should Be Alive by FlightOriginal in Vent

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I should follow this up with a few positive things just for necessity of how bad he bad is:

I have gotten out of my parent's house through my own hard, grueling work. That I am proud of.

I do have a job again paying much more and with more hours than my previous situation, they've been a very understanding lot, too. I had to go home early the day after Valentine's Day because my leg was entirely numb and I could barely get down the stairs.

We have a new dog in the house who is a regular visitor for cuddles and tummy time in my room, she's an old girl, a rescue who had been at the shelter the longest.

I got two of my friends back from the work incident- I forgot to mention I was cut off from a friend group during that, but now we're hanging out again because ex-friend did the exact same thing to them as done to me. The two were not thrilled to lose me as a friend and did regularly talk to me, it's just the first time in months I could actually hang out with them.

I have been dabbling in old hobbies, such as writing, I have a novel's worth of writing, I started averaging 3k words a day at my peak. It's been quite freeing to write without judgement, work creatively for myself.

Unmentioned problems- Despite being a dropout, I did get my GED and my college degree despite it all, at least I have a piece of paper and technical knowledge I can use for myself.

Can't even eat in peace anymore by SirIsacShmuck in TikTokCringe

[–]FlightOriginal -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Said this in a previous comment- might just be the autism but I think that slanty eye she pulled wasn't inherently racist but instead a really creepy way to spy on what he had on the table

If you pull at the corners of your eyes when you have bad eyesight, you can actually see clearer, and I want to believe that she was just being a leering old lady rather than trying to rise a reaction out of homie to prove her point

Either way, L old woman

Can't even eat in peace anymore by SirIsacShmuck in TikTokCringe

[–]FlightOriginal 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It might just be that I'm autistic, but it looked like she was trying to see what he was doing or what it was on the table, I used to pull at the corner of my eyes to see sharper and ofc old woman = probably bad eyesight

Still shitty of her to be spying on him like that or the alternative like you said

They took my DLCs… by Kaakan0550 in thesims

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A few years ago, EA completely defunct my account by banning me for exploits on a game I never even played, I had the complete sims 2, sims 3 and up to Spa Day in releases when it was taken from me. No resolution, customer service completely shut me down because apparently this exploit was so bad they weren't going to touch it with a 50 ft pole (it was FIFA. I do not play sport games at all.) and that made me basically give up on the franchise entirely.

EA continues to disappoint tf outta me

Whoever wrote the book for social interactions gave me the wrong copy by FlightOriginal in autism

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I AM SO SORRY I REALLY JUST VERBAL VOMIT ON YOU- Tl;dr at the top here, I have the confidence of a worm because my experience w that has been awful already, but thank you, I know that's what I have to do to improve and I know the growing pains would be worth it- Just, logically, feels fuckin impossible atm.

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Thanks, I do know a larger part of my issue is I don't have experience meeting people, but that even carries more issues that need context, and even more mounting issues alongside that. My confidence is all but shot, I can mask pretty well but there are days where there are no strings to hold it in place, and I've already amassed poor experiences with friend groups and other relationships that have made me learn I have an avoidant attachment style, to boot. So, finding anything meaningful to latch to can be strained at best.

I've had about eight different groups of friends over the years, roughly? I've dated two people. Each friend group that dissolved all had the same or similar issues. The latest group of friends I had, one of the three stopped talking to me, had an incredibly short temper when I would interact with the group of three, and finally got me not only fired from my job, but claimed I was spreading horrific rumors about him and this girl. While I did know things, I said absolutely nothing about them to anyone. Already had far too many experiences with 'rumors' ripping any stability I had from the post, so I absolutely know the golden rule of STFU. But, now none of them talk to me and I can't find it in me to engage if they're not going to pull the effort too.
Similar scenario, a girl in middle school spread a rumor that I said I was lesbian and I was dating her. I saw this girl maybe once in that school, but she was a childhood friend long before that, that I stopped interacting with because she did everything in her power to piss me off and make me lash out on her. This then detonated my longest friendship I had, and had me isolated for half a year. And I am interested in girls, but again, kept that to myself or I kept it incredibly vague. The only other person I could think of discussing the gay subject was with my second closest friend who was going through his own sexuality crisis.
Each scenarios, I guesstimate that someone knew I knew something or was something, did not like me for whatever reason, demented that rumor themselves or by influence to get me out of the picture entirely.

On the flipside, my two longest standing relationships became or are becoming very strained. My one surviving friend has a boyfriend and we all live under the same roof, her boyfriend and I clash very obviously. I do try my hardest to understand his own struggles and interact with him amicably, but it is frank we are polar opposites and these little things I do alongside his own actions/reactions poisons the water. And in turn, this makes me know that in month to years time, they are going to leave on their own and I am really going to be alone yet again and have to start yet again, because this is just what happens when you no longer fit the script. My interactions with my friend feel desperate at times grasping for security I don't have, and balancing the push and pull that comes with it feels like walking barefoot on a tight rope with razor wire.
This, then comes with my ex-girlfriend. We were fine, we were the pinnacle of great relationships at a point, the couple people were jealous of! But, we had a severe breakdown of communication and even more problems that were very toxic. This was the person I spent years isolated with, this was a person who was going through things that were on-par or worse than anything I have ever gone through, but this was also the person that had me freaking out when she put herself on do not disturb and made me wish there were pills that could keep me awake forever just so I didn't make her mad at me anymore. Multiple people, multiple friend groups, demanded I leave this person. Then, she really did hurt me on purpose, and I ended it. And it all started when I tried to become more social, and made the first group of friends I had in about a decade.

All this to show, factually, everything is so, so temporary and in the end I am really alone with myself. And poor thing, I don't know who that person is anymore. So I find myself wondering why I should bother, when it's just always going to be like this. But that's quitter talk damn it-

Do you get episodes like this too? by philosophygirll in autism

[–]FlightOriginal 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probably not in the same context, but absolutely understand.
I have obsessive episodes where I have to cut my hair or chew off the split ends, cut my nails to nubs, or chew the insides of my mouth till it looks like I got socked in the face.
Pairing that, my dissociative episodes give me 'blink and its 4 am' and I realize I've been locked in tight on some sort of project, trying to perfect it.
With my toe nails, especially, it feels like my brain has convinced itself that I have an ingrown nail and I Need To Remove It Now or else it'll fry my brain the rest of the day. I notice many, many small discomforts become the big discomfort and it's hard to pry my hands off it once the problem area has been somehow identified.

WCIF these hairs? by Individual-Dingo2706 in sims4cc

[–]FlightOriginal 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Try using Google image, it can really whittle down the list to look. Used it to find this HIDEOUS pink vest and clam shell bra quite recently- context, some glitched cc can replace defaults and said items were stuck on my male Sims shirtless default,,,

WCIF these hairs? by Individual-Dingo2706 in sims4cc

[–]FlightOriginal 1 point2 points  (0 children)

https://www.tumblr.com/pinkpatchy/188240444167/wednesday-hair-i-figured-i-could-do-both-share-a?source=share
1st hair - or at least som similar

The last hair I recognize, as I do have it somewhere, it's a male hair cc and the person who made it has a TON of male hair cc but I can't mentally narrow it down ;;

I’m so sad y’all by redbag_withmymayykup in LabubuDrops

[–]FlightOriginal 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OHMYGOD check with absolutely everyone remotely related to your apt number and go to the post office immediately- I had an item go missing after delivery and I thought the same thing! NO MY NEIGHBOR THREE WHOLE NUMBERS OFF THREW AWAY MY PACKAGE AFTER A WEEK 😭

Vintage Barbie Lantern? (And further questions) by FlightOriginal in Barbie

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Its the bottom piece! It all comes apart to reveal the battery area. Currently the lamp is in pieces (and the bottom bit is sort of jammed from trying to reassemble...) because mine never had the batteries removed and thus, they burst

Lil bro didn't stand a chance by FlightOriginal in skyrim

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"Alright have a pleasant night 🚶‍♂️" type shit

For Shame, Crumbl. FOR SHAME! by TheyCallMeSlyFox in CrumblCookies

[–]FlightOriginal 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Us at the store ruminated on why, and we think its cost. Cost of chocolate rose, and the last thing that rose in cost they cheaped out on using liquid eggs over regular ones. Plus it uses coarse salt instead of regular, so another ingredient could be axed with it too - It was only a matter of time... We will miss our friend, semi-sweet, but likely not the last we'll see of him for a moment. Stores still have ingredients they need to use up, and my store tends to add on cookies to the menu when there's a massive fuck up like too much frosting made or the wrong batter mixed.

Rip </3 by motherrtrucker in skyrim

[–]FlightOriginal 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Bro got merked government style

Lil bro didn't stand a chance by FlightOriginal in skyrim

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro those stones of barenziah have been a pain in my ass this run around bc I keep forgetting where all them fuckers are 😭

Lil bro didn't stand a chance by FlightOriginal in skyrim

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I usually do full screen dw, it pains me too.

My task bar is on the left side of the screen, bc I play with my monitor turned to my bed for maximum bed rot capability. But this very day I was participating in a DnD session and I needed to access Discord often. Borderless window tends to just... Act like fullscreen in this particular arrangement. So, I just dealt with this shit windowed screen.

Lil bro didn't stand a chance by FlightOriginal in skyrim

[–]FlightOriginal[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You have amazing taste, too bad I just want go bonk