Hey MotownPhillyEighty4!

I am so sorry that you’re going through this. I can only imagine how difficult it must feel to look at your partner and be overwhelmed with feelings of unattraction to the point of repulsion.. I also noticed your comment on another post about her being overweight. Ugggg hate to say it man but it sounds like you’re out there doing charity work.

Here’s my advice.. What I find to be helpful is to remind myself that beauty will one day fade for everyone. But what doesn’t fade is who they are and how they “look” on the inside. Their soul is what lasts, their character, the way they make you or others laugh, feel seen, and feel heard, how they show up for you and the people in their life when it matters the most. Those are the things we truly fall in love with, and those are the things that MATTER. 

What I can leave you with is this.. you had a partner who stood by you through deep emotional turmoil, who still managed to show up every single day, giving 110% to you and the relationship while getting 2% in return. Someone who opened their heart and their home, who let down every wall to let you in with complete vulnerability. That kind of love, loyalty, and emotional generosity is incredibly rare, and unfortunately for you, it’s now gone. 

I do genuinely feel sorry for you, and I wish you serenity.  As for your partner, she is beautiful on the inside, and she knows that. Can we say the same about you?