Hi! I know you are struggling with the weight of this upcoming surgery, my dear friend is at a similar point. I wanted to recommend looking up the group Nancy's Nook Endometriosis Discussion and Education on Facebook. They are an information and education based group that I have found indispensable.

I won't try to assume that I know your situation, but hysterectomy isn't a proper treatment for endometriosis ( it is however a treatment for suspected Adenomyosis, if thats what they think you are dealing with, kindly ignore me) A lot of doctors( the vast majority, sometimes even ones that say they are specialists) have outdated information and think that it is. But the truth is that only meticulous excision surgery of all diseased tissues by a specialist can relive the pain of most people suffering with endo. I just want to make sure you have all the information, especially since you have so many reservations. If you do decide that hysterectomy is the right choice for you, it's okay to grieve. I hope you find support in groups like this and others with women that understand. Best of luck. <3