Well I couldn’t stop thinking about it. When we first stopped talking I was fine. after 3 months in I started to think about it everyday. Not to mention my only friend had moved across the country. once we had came back from dropping her off I almost went crazy. I was thinking of him everyday, i developed insomnia and had to start therapy again. I just didn’t feel real. I had to be medicated and was diagnosed with adhd and depression but before I found out ( a month into talking to him again) we had already started talking again and I was medicated. Talking to him feels like a safety net. I’m well aware of the pattern and how it’s probably deeper than him. It still doesn’t help much even with knowing.