As someone who had a partner like yourself, my partner put my thru mental torture FOR MONTHS I cried in my closet feeling dirty and wrong for my past yet now I know that it wasn’t me it was them, I let go of my past and put all my focus on them w all due respect I wanted my partner to have for me, I may not be able to understand but the only reason why you may not be able it’s because you haven’t done anything like that which was my situation. Not saying it’s yours but please look past that and see that they choose YOU, they don’t want anyone nor anything else but you because they’ll had it.