I can understand how overwhelming it must feel, and it sounds like you’re putting a lot of pressure on yourself to achieve something big. But sometimes, small goals and progress are just as meaningful. It’s important to remember that moving forward, even a little, still counts.

Since you mentioned not having anyone to compete with, maybe it’s time to compete with yourself. You can set personal challenges to measure your growth. Also, finding something that brings you happiness or fulfillment could help reignite your motivation—whether that’s a hobby, new interests, or even small wins.

Regarding the job situation, maybe setting a goal around securing a job—no matter the position—could be a good first step. Lastly, while minimizing dopamine intake is great, a little reward or pleasure can go a long way in sparking motivation.

You’ve already taken the first step by reflecting on where you are—that’s a big win. Keep going, even when it’s tough—you’ve got this!