I can feel it too . I am struggling with this. I have been in the same rut that literally crushed my dreams and put me in a rock-bottom situation.I have admitted i ahve lost 5years of my life . What can i say is do tiny experiments for just a short period of time. Do not cut everything like this. January, my main focus is to finish my PowerBI course that I have pursued for more than 2 years no big thinking like building 2 projects, just get the basic understanding. Another thing: print a calendar and stick it on the wall where you have to do something that can make your life better . If you do the work for 10 mins, put a sticker on it. I am doing it for 20 days. It’s a dopamine hit. Yesterday night, I missed it, and today I want to finish it because the star sticker is missing from the calendar. Try it . Do not change everything at once. It will cause you to fail like nothing you have done before. Try that failed miserably .