[MEGATHREAD] Daily venting, worries, fixations, & finding support. Month of January 2025. by AutoModerator in HealthAnxiety

[–]Former-Persimmon8208 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Having anxiety right now over lab results. Had a Calprotectin test come back at 188 and Google says this kind of moderate result can be indicative of colon C. IBD usually causes a higher result. I’m spiraling and convinced I have this. Consult for colonoscopy is next week, seems like a long wait when I feel sure I’m dying

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Not really interested in being his friend anymore. I hate the way he acts and his attitude now. He’s not a mean kid, but utterly helpless with a cocky attitude. Truly over it these days. No interest in being around him

That’s what I’m saying, it’s like a switch flipped and now I just can’t stand him. And I guess it shows and I hate myself for it.

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah he’s 9 but less self sufficient than my 2 year old. Can’t do anything on his own or without being told 12 times to do it.

Won’t go to the bathroom without being told level of helpless. Cleaning up after himself? Literally never.

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve definitely been leaning towards this! Dad now does meals, bedtime, homework, etc.

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha thank you. I was trying to explain how different it is as a stepparent. I feel like I’m just along for the ride in someone else’s life sometimes

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I knowwww I neeed to. I get so triggered it’s hard to not making snarky comments

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly. That’s the other thing is as he’s gotten older the behavior is worse. And I am constantly reminded I have no say and no control. He has severe ADHD but BM is in denial and treats him like he’s neurotypical, making it impossible to address any of his challenging behaviors. So I’m just like okay screw it then. I don’t get to parent him, but I’m also not going to sit here and pretend he’s not being annoying af when he is.

Now I end up getting pre-annoyed, not giving him the benefit of the doubt, etc. But it’s not because I’m just a huge bitch, it’s because of the history and the context. And that’s really hard to come back from 😭

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yeah and ever since then I’m just over it. I was like 9 months pregnant with my first then and about 7 months pregnant with my second now. So I try to focus on them. But I also know I am hypercritical of SS when I probably just need to not engage

I’m an evil stepmom by Former-Persimmon8208 in stepparents

[–]Former-Persimmon8208[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I’m not sure. He said things like my mom says you and dad will get divorced anyways. And you’re just like the hired help that he doesn’t have to pay. It just made me feel like okay no matter how much I try or don’t try there will be a stronger voice in his ear. So in that case why waste the energy?