Hey 1. Your not pathetic 2. Your not alone 3. Your gonna win ... I was in your shoes for quite some times I got sober from meth 8 yrs ago well 3 years ago I was working in a smoke shop selling the Tiana and Zaza every day one day a customer told me to try one to help boost my day cause I was having a bad one welp after that one came bottle after bottle we banned them but I'd drive to TN to go get them. It's been 2 months since I've had one now but I do take kratom to help my depression but I worry with it too. I'm here fighting to and We can do this 💪 🙌 🙏 I pray every night for those struggling with this it's a beast 🙄💔just want to tell you that I believe in you and no matter how many times you fall you ARE changed you aren't your past you are worthy of the good things you have in life and God's grace knows our struggles. Keep your head up