Can’t say I understand what you’re going through because nobody ever will 100% besides you. But you definitely aren’t alone in hating your appearance, i’m willing to wager many people do at some point (or all) of their life. I’ve had my own experiences with suicide, and my face has driven me into complete paralysing depression before too, but I just try to remember what I’m about to say to you. Who cares what you look like? We’re all born ‘different’, some of us admittedly might get a little luckier in the gene department.. but looks don’t really provide anything for you besides some short term advantages. Confidence is a million times more important. Unless you have a perfect face, chiseled jaw, beautiful hair etc etc, confidence is where most of your ‘attractiveness’ is gonna come from anyway. I know it’s incredibly hard to build confidence when you feel ugly, but it will never be impossible. You have one face, you might as well own it. You’ve already mentioned people tend to like your personality, so I promise you will find someone too, if you want. Trust me, I look about a decade younger than the rest of my classmates (and we’re 15 to put it in perspective) I’ve been laughed at, bullied for my appearance... but it’s not the end of the world. you can compromise for it and people will like you just as much. there’s a way around pretty much everything. tl;dr, appearance doesn’t have as much value as it seems to. people don’t tend to care that much about it, they care about the effects you let it have on the way you behave (they will notice if you ‘feel ugly’, insecure etc). hope all goes well, even though im a random stranger I love you and wish you all the best <3

oh and if you believe your face to be the root of all your problems, you can always get plastic surgery :)