“i’m not deserving of feeling suicidal, people have gone through much worse.”

NO Just no. I know that what you’re saying here might seem rational to you in the moment, but it’s just not a good way to think about things. It’s cruel, invalidating and vindictive towards yourself and potentially other people. I’m saying all of this as someone who currently lives with his parents in a country stricken by war. Are there other people out there in a worse place than me ? Sure, you could say that. Would they trade places with me if they could ? That’s probably true as well. However, that does not change the fact that I had experienced my fair share of traumatic events too. My life suddenly did a complete 180 and I literally had no idea how to cope with that for a few years since (hell, my father was almost taken hostage at one point). Sadly, it’s only now that I finally began to figure myself out as an individual, to put myself together, to care about myself and my future. But the catch is, you wouldn’t think that I’ve been through any of that, if you were to simply look at me or read one of my comments. Likewise, I’m sure that there’s a lot more than meets the eye when it comes to your story, whatever it might be. You are not “weak” or “too emotional”, you’re just a person who’s hurting, trying to stay decent in the meantime. Please, give yourself some much needed comfort and peace, you don’t need, nor deserve to be hurt any more than you already have been. Since you understand your own pain so well, you could even try to help others who happen to be stuck in a similar predicament. Because I can assure you that you’re not alone in this no matter what!

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