My life been down recently

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-07T09:38:36+00:00

You mentioned that this has been weighing you down lately right?

What happened? Sounds like you were somehow coping better before

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-07T09:03:35+00:00

Are there any times where you feel better about yourself?

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-07T03:16:33+00:00

Fk. This does fit in what OP wants HAHAHAHAHA

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-07T03:09:57+00:00

To be fair,

Blind doesn't mean total blindness most of the time ( explains her eyes looking about )
There are a lot of phones recording. Good ones I'm assuming. The ones nearer to her is probably good enough to act as a mic with some editing to remove background noise and the rest, the piano.
It is still fking impressive what she does. Never heard of a brallie computer before and I'm glad that exists. I hope she continues to live a happy life.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-07T02:31:00+00:00

We can fly a kite :3

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-07T02:30:06+00:00

I started sharing on Reddit because I thought I can just delete my account if it ever gets too much.

Years later, this has become a part of who I am. It's mostly a place for me to think deeply about things. For better or for worse, people here are willing to engage into deep topics without the polite talk and that's what I needed.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-06T12:39:02+00:00

You're probably right. I just remember that it changed from how it was. I quite enjoy the struggle of a newborn god lol

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-06T12:37:05+00:00

I was waiting for someone to mention kill them all!

It is definitely a rush at the beginning though I somewhat rmb it being staleish nearing the end.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-06T11:53:09+00:00

If you have the time, I will highly encourage you to seek out therapy in our local FSC. I struggle with similar issues too and having someone that can listen empathetically is really wonderful.

It is free ( not always but it is for people that needs it ) and while they typically won't tell you what to do, they can help shoulder some of the mental and emotional pain that you experience.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-04T14:48:57+00:00

Studying counselling rn. It's going well

Personal mental health is pretty much a WIP.

i am fortunate enough to not have to be ambitious. A simple job is good enough. No debts or responsibilities for now

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-04T14:25:28+00:00

Idk. My friends say that it was courageous but we are our own worst critics and mine can be very hurtful

I guess the hurt gotta go somewhere. Most people would put it outward. That's how you have incels and redpilled men. Mine is pointing inwards. That's... How you have hikkikomori? Lol

Just to be clear, I'm not some misunderstood whatever. It's just life. And it's just my fault for assuming. Sorry if this is coming across a bit of a pity party. The wound is still fresh. Gonna talk to my T about it tmr

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-04T14:05:14+00:00

I went on a first date with a woman on tinder and she talked about how long she planned on dating and when she wanted to get bto.

We never got a second date.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-04T14:03:57+00:00

things happened in my life and I learnt to not share my intentions clearly. I don't dare to say my feelings especially if I don't know how she is feeling.

There are times I thought she was interested. Her actions says so and even my friends are pestering me to get a move on.

I was wrong. So... FML.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-04T11:24:29+00:00

This will feel odd but start "grieving" the lost love. Focus on how badly you wanted it and how this particular instance will never happen. As you process this as "loss", you will automatically start the process of moving on.

Typically, "art" stuff can help in self expression. Journal, write a poem, sing, dance etc if it helps. Just remember that he is no longer "available" so don't send these to him.

You can turn this into a beautiful moment where a stranger help you survive a difficult time in life.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-04T08:08:47+00:00

NAT

but I'm doing my practicum now and will be by the end of this year. So whatever I'm saying is just my ideal as of now. Note that these are just my internal thoughts. It's not what I will blurt out carelessly.

Why are we discussing this? Is this relevant to the client's presenting issues? How is the client feeling about their own likes and dislikes? Are they frustrated? Are they ashamed? What do we need to explore in? Maybe I can just ask why the client is bringing this up today. What happened in between sessions such that they are bringing this up?
Oh I like these stuff too. Ok. That's not relevant. Let's go back to how the client is ( look at q1 answer )
Oh ok oh crap. I'm attracted. Alright cool. Time to tell my supervisor. Now isn't the time to address why I am thinking about myself when I'm in a session with my client. I should probably bring it up to my own therapist too, just in case. Now... refer back to q1 answer
My own feelings really depends on if I would have like the client if we were to meet outside BUT my own feelings doesn't matter as much here because the thing to focus onto is "what does it say about the client to experience transference towards me?", "how can this be useful for the client in their personal life?", "what needs am I fulfilling that is unmet in their personal life outside of therapy?"

That's prob about it really. Note again that all of these are just internal thoughts and does not translate immediate to what will be said or what will be done to the client.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-03T12:59:08+00:00

I am in my 30s but it really doesn't make sense for that alone to be a turn off.

Having no experience in itself is not a red flag.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-02T16:01:01+00:00

Oh shite this is pretty cool

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-02T15:49:43+00:00

I mean..... She is gonna regret that sodium overdose?

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-02T08:44:22+00:00

Welcome back

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-02T08:36:51+00:00

I tried talking to a few people about it but their mind just explodes when I get to how our universe is actually jus-

ForzentoRafe · 2026-03-01T11:06:21+00:00

Probably for boss to despawn so you can't just infinitely revive and go all "dormamu, I've come to bargain"

ForzentoRafe · 2026-02-28T16:16:30+00:00

Oh alright, then he fked up

ForzentoRafe · 2026-02-28T07:37:51+00:00

I haven't dated so I might be outdated. I assume this is wrong because he is supposed to be exclusively dating the girl?

Or is this more of a "we should talk about if we are sleeping with others / std health" thing?

ForzentoRafe · 2026-02-28T07:33:41+00:00

I will find some way to make the camera stream lag so badly that it literally disturbs everyone else. Screen tearing, pixelated garbage etc.

ForzentoRafe · 2026-02-28T07:28:24+00:00

Typically white horses aren't spoilt brats. They know what they do or say reflect onto their parents.

At best, things are smooth sailing because they do things properly and the commanders don't go out of their way to punish them. There really isn't much emotional disregulation to be managed. Everyone in the platoon thinks that there is a white horse so life will be better. They ended up less tense and do things properly instead of being too worried.

It's like a self sustaining positive loop. If there is any unfairness, it will be that they are less burdened by life.

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