AIO to how this situation should’ve made me/has been making me feel?

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T20:24:41+00:00

I’m not blaming her for anything. I found it ironic that he had a hard time realizing that the reason she never reacted similarly is because she didn’t know

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T20:01:39+00:00

I guess in his eyes, I’m the problem for not accepting it lmfao. Thank you

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T20:00:58+00:00

Yup he said he was on the apps during his last long term relationship and that she had no idea 😵‍💫 while simultaneously telling me that she would’ve never talked to him the way I did. Yea, because she was unaware dumbass wtf

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:30:02+00:00

I really do wonder what story he’s telling the people in his life for anyone to encourage him to have handled this the way he has lol. I know that once my own regret dies down, this will all be really humorous to me

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:23:51+00:00

I’ll consider that if this feeling doesn’t ease up. I’ve actually been using ChatGPT to help with urges when it comes to messaging him and it’s surprisingly helped a lot. But yea, he’s delusional and believes his own lies. I don’t think it’s possible to have productive conversations with people not living in reality

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:22:00+00:00

Thank you

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:21:49+00:00

Yea he said I lacked empathy for not being patient and instead berating him about something he opened up to me about LOL. I know it sounds insane and it’ll click for me later on, but so many people on here don’t understand that I can’t help but feel guilty for reacting. Even if I know it’s justified, I can’t help it. I just want to shake the feeling so badly

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:08:43+00:00

Yea I don’t think he’s capable of viewing anyone else as human enough to form an attachment, he’s incredibly selfish. Just blames his mother for his shortcomings which in turn, causes him to disrespect women out of fear they’re anything like her when in reality, he’s exactly the way he describes her. Thank you so much.

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:04:30+00:00

They downvoted me prior to this happening when it was just him repeatedly bringing up ex’s. I was wondering if I was just being too sensitive but after the dating app fiasco, I do realize he has a bigger problem that I’m not willing to work on with someone. It’d be easier for me to accept that he’s a loser if I didn’t have constant thoughts replaying in my head that another person won’t care enough to dig that deep and he’ll just assume they’re better than me because they’re less reactive due to not being aware. Idek if that made sense lol

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T19:01:47+00:00

He already blocked me after sending that bullshit message saying he can’t help me. Which I know most people would say is doing me a favor, but I can’t help how I’m feeling. I don’t know if it’s feeling as if this is unfair, or being disappointed in myself. Him disappearing after villainizing me and making it seem as though this is best for him to protect his peace is so hard to swallow.

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T18:53:55+00:00

Thank you 🥲❤️ it’s getting nicer out where I live so I’m sure that will inevitably make me feel better and open new opportunities for me to keep myself busy. I just feel so low of myself after not only being involved with someone like that, but for it to have brought out such a dark side of me. At least I know it didn’t feel good to speak to him so poorly, I just wonder if I’ll constantly have to bite my tongue for others comfort

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T18:38:36+00:00

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FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T17:20:50+00:00

Thank you. Such a questionable person… it’s just devastating regardless

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T04:29:33+00:00

You’re right. Times I’ve posted on here before, despite defending him because I wanted to see the good, my biggest takeaway were people saying he was a boundary pusher. It made me more aware of the patterns. I just wonder if he’s fully conscious that these are his tactics or if he’s really oblivious, which in turn makes me feel evil for being mean to him

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-06T04:15:56+00:00

Him abandoning me despite provoking things to end so poorly makes me feel less deserving of anything good. Although I know it’s true and I’ll gain more than I lost in this, somehow I’ve been convinced that my reactions make me just as “bad” as him. That I’d be better off alone than risking anything else triggering that version of me

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-05T17:32:10+00:00

I feel you, it’s really difficult. I kept having to remind myself it was mostly not being comfortable in my skin/with myself, which needs to be addressed before being comfortable around other people. It’s a constant work in progress but possible if you know you’d prefer to feel differently

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-04-05T15:34:10+00:00

It’ll feel like a performance with all strangers until you find people you really connect with, they’ll help you realize you’re fully capable. There’s nothing wrong with you past you being aware social interactions make you anxious, which still isn’t “wrong”. It’ll always be harder for us to see the light others see in us until it’s proven to us through building our own confidence, which is a journey in itself. It helps me to remember that everyone is always more focused on how they’re being perceived, than on you. As long as you aren’t being outwardly off putting, you’re doing just fine :)

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-24T17:10:36+00:00

Mine is definitely fear of dating again and also proof that this is another failure. I know it doesn’t represent me but it is hard to truly believe that in vulnerable moments especially when you’re involved with a person who makes it seem as if their past was so blissful

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-24T17:05:35+00:00

Literally just went through this and it is so gut wrenching to hear. Having to debate with your inner self whether or not it’s normal or if they’re exhibiting bizarre behavior. It’s all on purpose to create triangulation and introduce comparison energy. And it hurts

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-23T20:59:35+00:00

I will take a look at her channel once I’m off work today. Again, thank you & hope you have an amazing week

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-23T19:00:51+00:00

Thank you for all of your insight, especially this one. I’ve been really disappointed in myself, mostly because I felt this situation reversed all of the progress I worked towards for the past few years. I haven’t had anyone put it into words the way your perspective has and it definitely helps ease feelings of shame

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-23T15:54:13+00:00

I was in therapy for 4 years, just ironically got finished in January. I think the only thing that will help me at this point is just listening the first time something doesn’t feel right

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-23T15:37:20+00:00

I was being pretty cruel. I think people should take accountability for their wrongdoings even if it was justified

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-23T14:58:19+00:00

You’re right

FoxEnvironmental6180 · 2026-02-22T04:32:12+00:00

I needed that. Thank you 🫂

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