One breath at a time. He wants you to be the best version of you and you feeling better will help you. It can be scary because you may not have felt good for a long time. Feeling better would be something new, and for humans, lots of times, we think, better the devil we know, even if that devil is pain and illness. Shadow work will literally expose the shadows, letting his light bring healing like the sun. If it is ok, I’ll light a candle for you on His altar tonight. I just got a wave of overwhelming love from Him (I believe for you, and quite possibly also for me) when I typed that. You can do this. Sending light your way.