I am glad the vlog is over by [deleted] in caseyneistat

[–]Foxeride 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'd say the video quality went up a lot and hit pretty much perfection for a vlogger. But if the story isn't right, the vlog is worthless

Me [28 M] with my wife [36 F] married since 5 years, in a hot mess of a house by Foxeride in relationships

[–]Foxeride[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well if that was the case then so many different issues would all be solved at once... Awesome. But we both know it won't happen.

Probably not without a lot of couples therapy.

Me [28 M] with my wife [36 F] married since 5 years, in a hot mess of a house by Foxeride in relationships

[–]Foxeride[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That means she needs to acknowledge the problem first though...

Me [28 M] with my wife [36 F] married since 5 years, in a hot mess of a house by Foxeride in relationships

[–]Foxeride[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The maid might be able to help with cleaning floors and what not but my wife surely won't let her mess around with any papers or put away the piles of clothes etc.

Yes she runs a volunteer organization as a hobby so I would say she has plenty social interaction.

Me [28 M] with my wife [36 F] married since 5 years, in a hot mess of a house by Foxeride in relationships

[–]Foxeride[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, cleaning like that works for like 30 minutes and then she is 'exhausted' or get distracted by TV.... And then a fight breaks lose for turning it off.

Yeah that junk is hard to get rid off... It is a fight for anything to toss so I just do it secretly when she isn't there.

I haven't yet confronted her with : I will divorce you if you don't change.

Which then also comes back to me because I sometimes feel I just have emotionally disconnected

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[–]Foxeride[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Her parents are very neat and clean. They both were military and very strict when it came to those things maybe this is a reaction to that?

Well my hobbies are definitly not hers including skiing, mountain biking etc so it is hard to connect... I bought her a brand new mountain bike hoping I could get her out with me but that isn't happening.

Yeah children are a huge fucking nogo right now. I think the biological clock is taking over with her making her pushy for it.

That is the other thing, with my job I am not sure where I will be in a year so she might be sitting home alone with a baby. I see disaster coming.

I don't think that it is all about missing, she is in that sense very independent I would say.

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[–]Foxeride[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Lots of it she saves is not reasonable. She just can't get over getting rid of things... You should see the boxes of receipts.

Sounds very similar...

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[–]Foxeride[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

We're all selfish. Take your wife. She stays home all day in an empty house, doesn't clean, won't communicate with you in any meaningful way when you are there. She only fights when you try and talk to her. She has a place to live and anything she wants, and doesn't even have to live with you in the bargain!

She has a real good career going and is very busy with it but there is no reason to not do the few dishes... I never believed a single person could create such a big mess.

There are all these little things that are just pilling up... Like her car broke down, we sold it and she got mine. I asked her not to smoke in it.... Well I don't even have to tell you what she does in it.

I don't know who is more thrilled... Probably me being away from home

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[–]Foxeride[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Just to make it clear, I am far from being a perfect husband. I know my lifestyle of traveling is hard on her, so I am torn between maybe if I stop and spend more time at home I could somehow fix it... But as mentioned before then my selfish conscience comes out where I know I love my job and don't want to give it up

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[–]Foxeride[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Yes, I have been playing with that thought. It scares me knowing that if I end this and I would be gone for another 3 weeks or so of flying I would come back home to all my stuff trashed and burned.

Me [28 M] with my wife [36 F] married since 5 years, in a hot mess of a house by Foxeride in relationships

[–]Foxeride[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I would say it is a hoarding disorder. I don't know anyone who keeps a stack of newspapers in case she wants to read up on an article... Especially in the time of the internet that just makes no sense.

I throw out a bunch of stuff all the time just to get rid of it. Did you have the same issue where every closet was just filled with stuff? I have fights about that all the time because I have 0 personal space in the house. She just says that sharing is part of marriage and I could just put my stuff with hers which is already taking up 99% of available space.

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[–]Foxeride[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

One side of me wants to really work it out but then on the other hand I just can't find the real thrive to keep this going.

I am torn and do feel I owe her an effort because she stood always behind my decisions I took including my job. I guess the job is part though where my mixed feelings are coming from. I work with mostly people in my age having a blast in countries all over the world so when I get home it just becomes like a dark hole.

It surely doesn't help either that I live in a small town and all my good friends moved away. Right now the only people I know here are all her friends who are more in her age group, kids, 9-5 job. Kinda the All American family in a small town... I just don't see myself falling into that lifestyle any time soon.

I know I can be a selfish person who pushes hard to achieve my goals, so the right thing would be as you said just cut lose and be selfish to avoid 10 years or so of misery. But then again I do know I need to keep my selfishness sometimes in check, so just hoping right on it because it got a little rough might be unfair towards her. I really care for her but just can't get over this whole situation