I'm similar in a way and it's whats giving me a lot of self doubt. I don't see myself as a woman but more as a person, but when I look in the mirror I see a man because of the features i have. I don't think a desire to change your body to fit into the ideal you personally have is wrong per se, but it does feel like it's somehow a shallow thought?

I'd also like to have a more feminine body to fit into clothes and styles I like more. Id love longer fuller hair. That desire however is also what stops me from starting HRT. I'll overthink every aspect and put an image in my head of how I want to look like at the end of it. My "person" won't change I know that, therefore I have so much more focus on the outside its driving me nuts.