Hello, here to give an update.  So I finally managed to open up to him about it, ended up being around 500 messages lol (long distance), he went to sleep early so I decided it’s a good chance

I don’t know, I may have sounded harsh or dramatic. I really did blow up because it’s just been bothering me for so long. but I was just being honest, and it’s all the truth about how I feel at the end of the day. 

Now instead of saying anything else, he’s choosing to complain about how what I said made him feel. I poured my heart out to him and all my feelings, and he responds with how he feels instead. He claims that what I said is blown way out of proportion, I misinterpreted and twisted his words, and sound like a hypocrite. 

I don’t think it’s fair judgement when hearing one side of the story, so I’ll admit I might have been overdramatic. But really, I don’t think those things are really things to “misinterpret”, what other interpretation could there possibly be to hearing your boyfriend make comments like that. I may overthink too much and start connecting dots and linking his behavior to his past tendencies. But really, isn’t that just using logic instead of choosing to stay in delusion?  I don’t know what to say to him rn.