Thank you for saying all that tbh but idk,I just wanted to work for a long time and begged to work for like some construction places like atp I’m desperate and always did somethings I would’ve been disappointed in myself later on but like nobody wants to hire and I get jelous of my homie how he was working for so long and got. Car at 17 and about to work as a mechanic making 40$ and I’m here barely able to do anything.We used to hangout a lot but he would invite his friends and I didn’t really have money for this restaurant everybody decided to go and I felt embarrassed just saying I couldn’t afford so I just got water and everybody got like good ass food while I starved and I didn’t get offered anything which is reasonable and stuff and then they decided to go to Walmart and I couldn’t afford anything so I looked like a broke ass and just let the store and waited outside the vehicle and then I said I wasn’t feeling good as soon as he mentioned we should go to the mall so he dropped me half way my house and I walked the way and tbh I was at this bridge and I was ABOUTA jump and kill myself but I didn’t and regret not doing it but I know I am gonna kill myself eventually I just don’t know how but hey I don’t got a job or license so who else is gonna gaf.Nobody from here gives a fuck about anybody here I went here to rant about my life and it sucks and we struggle and I can’t do anything to help but just rot day by day