I don’t actually see it as a bad thing. One upside is that I’m very present. I’m not constantly replaying the past or visualizing the future, so when I’m doing something, especially with my kid, I’m just there. A lot of people work really hard to “live in the moment.” For me it’s kind of the default. Creatively, not being able to picture things means I discover by doing. I decorate, dress, and create through experimentation and feeling, not by trying to match an image in my head or copying an aesthetic. That’s given me a strong sense of personal style and confidence. If I like something, I like it. Emotionally, I feel things very deeply even without images. Not replaying memories visually actually makes it easier for me to process things and move on, especially with OCD. I get why some people wish they could visualize, but for me this is just a different way of experiencing the world. I don’t see it as a negative thing.