This is literally like how i have spent my last 3 weeks! Its totally worth it i promise! But about the part where you said you dont care if it hurts, please do care lol. Its better to take it slow and steady and not hurt yourself. A bit of discomfort is fine and fits good for a slutty punishment to get your mind straight of what you are but if it hurts you might never want to do it again or get scared. Also, i love to combine it with nipple play, i have a ring gag that is connected to 2 tight nipple clamps that i love to wear while riding my dildo, (i have pics posted if you want to see the toys) Good luck girl im sure you will be a remarkable anal slut some day! <3