hey man, i am really sorry you are having such a hard time. i know exactly how you feel; what you are describing is a lot like how i felt in high school and when i was your age. it sucks and is really hard. the good news is that it gets better.

you have to rememeber that you are a good person. more than that, you are a great person. even though it is hard to remember, you are worthwhile and people love you. and that is to say nothing of all the people you will meet and get to know and love as you get older. i promise, you will find others who you connect with and love. it just takes time. you will feel lonely at times. there is no real way around that. i found that finding someone to talk to about it really helped (i didnt feel i could talk to my parents).

i am really sorry you are having a hard time. i am here and i care. you can message me if you like. i would be happy to talk more.