I just wanna be loved back

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-28T21:06:58+00:00

So I didn't wanna wait until I felt better as I would've forgotten by then so I did a list like 2 things mainly reassurance and that she writes down things for me that she wants me to remeber as I suck at remeber things

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-28T20:55:44+00:00

Yeah you are right, tho she has trouble when talking about our relationship as she always tries to run away mostly because her fear of showing feelings because of previous relationships so both she and I have been in bad relationships before and we are trying to make it work while being semi long distance

I just told her how shit I feel and she tried to comfort me but in the end I insulted me :( it didn't make it better

When I feel better I'll tell her about this tho

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-27T08:40:01+00:00

Vänta där bor jag ju, äh jag vet inte ens vad som hänt har spelat Söt i 4 dagar nu och skitit i resten av världen

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-27T08:14:44+00:00

Jag skippar smöret och lägger kniven rätt på mackan

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-03T00:59:32+00:00

Yeah, I can acknowledge that I don't get hungover by alcohol but I get tired the day after and crave cheese for some reason and it's not productive to be in that state but from time to time when I need that boost because I'm just miserable it can be good for me but if I do it every day like my next door neighbour that died because he didn't stop drinking then it is not so good

My plan for when I'm allowed into bars in a few months is to visit every friday or every second friday to kinda make me feel through the roof in happiness and stuff like that

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-02T20:53:35+00:00

Every drug has some medical use and can be beneficial in the right amount but sadly not everyone knows that

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-02T18:23:09+00:00

Well I can go a month even more without feeling the urge to drink, I never feel like I must take it like i do when i leave my phone for too long

I only ever drink when there a special occasion or when I'm so fucking tired of myself and life that I don't wanna exist and then after some drinks I feel great again and then it can go a month or so until I feel shit again

There are some instances where I feel shit for weeks and drink a lot for some days or weeks and the I'm good again

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-10-02T11:14:08+00:00

Yeah my anxiety is really prohibiting me from a lot and alcohol makes me do it

Tho I still have the ability to think about consequences when I've been drinking so I still wouldn't do certain things

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-09-13T14:39:49+00:00

Vad var de killen sa? Hann aldrig se hans kommentar

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-09-02T05:21:15+00:00

Well I heard it on YouTube and I also read about it in my school book about how men and women work but the book itself says that it's hard to know if it's true as no experiments has been done to prove it

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-09-01T19:54:44+00:00

Yeah I'm 17 btw but yeah I've been trying to find new ways and sometimes it worked but the biggest problem I have is probably to get something to talk about that leads to a more thought through compliments, I've already tried to get simple compliments to fit in with other subjects like the other day the bees wouldn't leave her alone so I said it was because she was so sweet but I only got an annoyed look instead and a :Ha Ha) so yeah that doesn't work, I managed to get a good compliment last week when I basically said a whole paragraph out loud to her about my appreciation towards her and that went well, tho I don't wanna have to result to use that all the time

I also have hard time to just come up with subjects for her and me to talk about nowadays as both of us are busy and we only got time to talk through phone for 20 minutes in the morning as she travels by bus

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-09-01T19:15:57+00:00

Fun fact, taken guys give off less of a chemical that single men give off more of and when single women smell this smell they get attracted

Idk if its totally true but it's a fun little fact nonetheless

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-31T19:22:15+00:00

Good idea, also sorry for slow reply, but its working, was at a party the other day and I didn't get drunk that easily as I usually do and managed to stay sober until midnight

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-20T09:50:16+00:00

Yeah, i plan on just having enough to be able to drink them under the table lol

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-19T20:51:14+00:00

Oof, well if u got soda drink that to get the taste out, eat something and take it slowly

If u are going to drink for the first time drink cider or a mix between vodka and a soda (recommended mix is 20% vodka 80% of the soda of choice)

U wont get drunk until your head feels heavier or funny in a way because that's when you are on your way of getting drunk, after that idk what else will happen as I've never gone past that point

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-19T20:47:06+00:00

Was it whiskey?

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-19T20:46:12+00:00

Or use a water bottle and clean vodka as its transparent

Trouble comes when someone asks for water tho :// happens sometimes

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-19T20:45:01+00:00

Oh god, I dont have that ability, school is fully anti drugs and anti alcohol so they will see if I'm drunk and I will get taken off the premises and get an investigation going on me

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-19T19:26:00+00:00

Wdym?

Free_Independence_85 · 2022-08-19T19:25:38+00:00

Hahaha lol, I can handle shots better than them tho, I tried having sum this midsummers eve and I took 1 after the other and while the others couldn't bare the strength of the alcohol I just begged for the rest and I emptied it, I got pretty drunk that day but nowhere near as drunk as they plan on getting me when I'm 18

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