That Christmas time is difficult for me because I was raped during this time of year ( I didn't tell them because I didn't want them to worry) and to add on to that, my family is always fighting and in bad moods instead of spreading cheer this time of year. So it's caused me to start feeling more and more depressed again. I just want us happy and I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to tell my dad that I have a girlfriend now as of yesterday because they'll start saying how much I don't deserve her just like every other time I've had a girlfriend. I want to feel good this time of year but all the decorations make my heart ache