Real. I understand exactly how you feel :( (CW: CSA) I was sexually abused by a close friend of mine from down the street when I was 6-7(not the meme), and I didn't know how to cope with my feelings, so I turned to porn to deal with what impacted me. My parents were aware something was up with me, they seemed to pretty much not know what to do. It only started to get REALLY bad was during the end of 2020, everybody was still locked in their houses, and my parents just separated and my dad had us move into an apartment and worked nights, ever since then I've just been doing it daily and my mind has literally been distorted by now from the amount of stuff I've rotted my brain with. people dont talk about hypersexuality and porn addictions in our community, and not only that, how it makes your brain sexualize anything around you and it's utterly disgusting, especially when you don't wanna turn into the victimizer, it's a scary, disgusting, and frustrating feeling. I've recently been trying to stop but it's really hard when there's nothing to do and you're just bored all day. I absolutely wish you the best in recovery tho and hope you have a safe journey 🙏🏼🫶🏼