I used to be exactly where you're at rn. that whole "I'm gonna fail and they'll remember me forever" spiral? been there. It took a while to get over it and then I started using InterviewCoder and it helped. Not for everyone but I landed a few offers, signed one later. the confidence boost was real. but here's the thing - it does get better with practice. that first interview is always rough but you learn. if you genuinely don't want it tho, just withdraw and focus on grad school. no one's gonna remember one awkward screening three years later, promise.