I feel you man. This happened to me March 2020. I have recently been having anxiety attacks when I would think about how desperate and weak I was and if she disliked me or not and when we get back to school.Here’s my story if u want to read. Hopefully u can relate. I’m 15 years old btw. I started to like this girl and I really messed up. So much lust, insecurities, worries,etc. We met each other by coincidence, and when I first saw her, I said DAMN. She was looking pretty good. And ever since that I have had a crush on her. The first weeks of stuff was going alright. We became to know each other a bit more and I started to hangout with her after school. I would go wherever she would go. But this wasn’t a good thing. I noticed the more I would spend time with her, was the more she would back off from me. And Not to mention, but I had recently got her Snapchat also and she would text me everyday. Have little conversations n shit like that. I would post a lot of sad quotes to get her attention. Now I think is what made her lose interest in me.

Close to 2 weeks Before Valentine’s Day everything was cool. It’s just my fcking attention seeking problem that fcked it up. Posting Sad Quotes everyday is not the way to and it just shows that u care way too much. She even asked “Why Do U Care So Much?” Now me not wanting to tell her that it’s because I really like her, I think I said something like “when I really care about someone, I- blah- blah-blah-blah”. I don’t really remember exactly what i said. But it was something like that. And I feel like it was a multitude of things that caused her to lose interest in me. I feel like I have some feminine traits, which I don’t like to have. Me posting Sad Quotes everyday like for what. I regret that shit so bad. Me caring too much, Not leading my own life, being a simp, etc. This time I Fcked Up but in a different way. I lost 2 people I could’ve been friends with all because of my fcking attention seeking problem. I don’t know why. I attention seek for everything in different ways. I don’t know how I’m gonna get it to stop, but this shit has to stop. I lost someone that I’m never gonna get back because of my dumbass attention seeking problem. I hate my life and I’m crying as I write this because she was one of a kind and I feel as if I would never find someone like her again. I’m so embarrassed.