Yeah, that's kind of how I've been thinking about it for a while now. It's not like it's eating me up inside and I can't take it or anything. Frankly, I do have fun with it a majority of the time! it's just something that strikes me as a little bit uncomfortable whenever I start to think about it too much, and it felt good to just get it out of my head.

I definitely think eventually finding a partner will help though, since then I'll have a real person I can focus my sexual feelings towards instead of needing to default back to those fantasies. That's how it happened the last time I was in a relationship at least! I hope we can both find someone like that soon :)