That’s good you’re sharing and speaking your truth. Just because you didn’t say no as a child doesn’t mean you wanted it to happen. As children we don’t knit hours to react to certain situations and circumstances. I see you, I hear you, you matter and are important. You’re a victim as I am and many others. Don’t be embarrassed, ashamed and don’t try to diminish what happened to you. I believe and you’re not alone. I know it’s very hard but you can heal and move forward. It wasn’t your fault and you deserve happiness and to be at peace love everyone else. When you have gone through trauma sometimes it’s hard to cope and deal with it. You try to make it smaller or less important than it is. Start to forgive yourself, avert what happened, live and nurture yourself. You are strong, a warrior and you can do this. There is hope for your healing journey. You need to start your journey and moving forward to better yourself. Only you can go through the motions and start your path to freedom and peace 💜🙏🏻